LIFE SUCKS BIG TIME.. (I guess)

i am so pissed off now.. i am in the sour mood rite now. a real sour one.. i shall be the one and only pessimist in band.. well.. who would care though.. like" damn, i have enough problems and getcha problems outta my life.. so SCRAM!" would be one sentence either of my frenz would say.. my swear word is dumbass... how interesting.. ¦b it is really the swear word i usually use and was the first to use it in the class.. mUahHahhaHhA... eRp.. as usual... all this typed out laughter still aint make me laughing.. cuz it aint funny.. trying to make up some toopid sentence and try to laugh at me own jokes. sucks. *bLaEhZ* suck totally. y does all mishaps happen to me..? why am i the one to suffer... "how i wish.." how u wish wat? ur arse wouldnt bleed so hard when u were having constipation..?! can u imagine me, lynn to be using all this crude remarks..?!?! cuz i am changing to be a freaking mean bitch... i am feeling so depressed and i need someone to get me outta the dark and lead me into the bright... but too bad all my bequests are the way it is.. it wont change... i am really growing to be a pessimist.. and i dun want to.. i wanna be the positive me.. the one who always advise pple to look on the bright side of life... ¦..( i am so sad.. so very very very sad.. anyway, wat i wrote yesterday has nothing to do with wat i am writing today... can u imagine..?!?! now i havta juggle 4 balls at the same time!!! aRgH.. this is getting nowhere... shud i simply juz end my life NOW? aint it betta..?! nobody cares bout me.. so wat purpose is there for me to live on...?! there is a saying tat goes "u dun live life for the sake of living it or urself. u live it for others who needs u." uh huh... i live life for the sake of living it lor... cuz i dun hav anyone who needs me.. i am insignificant.. i am eminent.. so why is there any more reason for me to live on..?! and a chinese proverb " do good and good will come in return (hao xing you hao bao) " i did good deeds.. like S.P.C.A cip day.. then practising all i could for the SYF... aint all this good deeds..? shud i like donate my kidney or lungs or half of my brain for those who needs it? is tat wat a good deed is..? i do everything in love.. but why aint the love coming back in return to me?! am i really tat detesable? *hNh!* life aint the way i want it to be.

*dePreSSeD kiD*~ LyNn
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