u r so very pissed off... aint those pple who betray and decieve u suck TOTALLY..?! they are inhumane to have toyed wif u... to think tat u have trusted them so much... so much tat u are in the midst of crying out loud and venting ur anger on ur pet... u thot all this were pure and true but it all turned out wrong in the end...all this were juz supreficial and artificial.. i am so pissed. to think tat this was something good... a tale about to come true.. aRgh... ¦..( i am so frustrated and upset.. i wished i only juggled 1 ball wif 2 hands instead of juggling 3 balls wif 2 hands and dropping all the balls on the floor.. aRgH... life is one tough obstacle to pass.. except for the fat tat... BAND GOT A DISTINCTION..! ¦l mUAhaAHhahHa..!!! all this typed out laughter aint helping me to smile at all.. it HURTS.. i cant believe this man.. it really hurts. i hate myself sometimes for being wat i am. but i love myself for knowing frens like all dudes and babes in band... some of my classmates... my family... but i hate it when i dissapoint my parents.. for getting real bad results.. god... why am i such a detestable fucker? i really hate it...!!! i wanna be loved by all... there is this saying " to be loved is to learn to love.." i already loved... why am i still not loved..?! arGh..?! i am a piece of shit on the ground and when pple step on me, they will feel pissed and disguisted... and YEAH! tat is wat i am... a hindrance and nuisance... *blaEhz* if only i would die and reincarnate to somebody betta.. someone of high personality... mUAhahHAHhah... which means i havta die now... bye pple... i am like "commiting suicide" ...

*depressed bitch*
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