JUST FOR THIS ONE DAY?

read the blog right after receiving the msg.

ok. so is it just this day who ruined it all? so all the good times were insignificant and easily forgotten while this day today is the worse and most memorable? hah*

if i was really that angry, i wouldnt have even talked the whole day. for a mere stare and 'blink'(the bad way. in hokkien, diao) of the eye. i am petty. i could have reacted worse if i was still sec 2 or maybe 3. maybe i would have gave u a slap on the face and all.

and for that mere "maybe it was you who farted." sentence, you get angry with me? it may be very crude but that's me. friends are supposed to like each other even for their bad side of them unless it is really serious like badmouthing each other and all. and because i wanted to quit the chinese story-telling competition, i gave you a stupid excuse and all.. you got angry, AGAIN. is these minor things that in life seems major and major things in life like telling someone "i hate her." when you get angry minor? then i think it is really funny.

i take you people for granted? are you sure? if i did, yes again, i wouldnt have talked to you the whole day and think that you are a bitch or fucked up shit. in fact, i did not. i did my own self-thinking. if it was really me or what. i have decided to change. crying crying crying* if you all dont like it then i dont know what to do. if i am all quiet. that is the new me. breathe* i am not going to be the lynn who makes stupid faces and say COLD jokes and be the clown anymore. i will just be a girl. the gentle girl who sits properly, always wear a 3/4 long skirt. not anymore will i be the cross-legged seated, loud spoken, bitchy, even more fun than a barrel of monkies seen in me.
and yah, if i took you people for granted, i wouldnt have even thought of buying that last pack of biscuit on the shelf which was cheap and all. but still i thought that you people liked that pack of biscuits and so, my mum bought it for me since i wanted it.
"if i didnt think of you(whichever one of you..)i would have bought like.. sanitary pads for myself or some shit lor."

think about it. i wont be wrong about this. i may not be the best at making peace, but i am sure i am good of telling which are my friends, which are not.

~maybe one day i'll be myself, but i wont forget this day when you gurls made me so disppointed in you and myself.~
LyNn
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