catherine tay. just bare with everything.
the rocking band WILL be BACK.
yaay. multiply by like.. an INFINITY.
the twe now, think they rock.
which is so untrue.
its not that i wanna criticize them or whatsoever.
but i mean.. they're not even half as NICE and caring as the band before.
if they WERE in our (cat and me) batch,
they'll realise how fucking fake they are.
their fucking fake smiles. -ask cat
their SARCASTICALLY(spelling) forced welcomes.
the i-am-a-fucking-great-musician personality
well.. we say so much.. complain so much..
yet all they do is make it worst.
but oh well.. who'd like these complaints anyway?
however, complaints are meant to make something better than NOW.
i complain, you guys SHOULD do something bout it to make me satisfied with it yea?
isn't it true? -ask zat
zat will understand what i am saying. C;
i LOOOOVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEE the syf band.
and i am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO missing them. RIGHT CAT?
simply seeing malorie, cheryl, eugene and my 'baby' timothy (yes, i did a wedgie!)
just perks me and brightens my whole day up!
its like seeing sunshine even it isnt there.
like "its sunshine after the rain" kinda stuff..
oh man.. i am still SOOOOOOOOOOOO missing them.
like multiply by an infinity.
and they'll be back!! cat!!! they will, they will!
whoopeedeedoo!
i want to see the syf2003 band. ASAP. play with them and touch my flute the very last time?
and seriously, i dont think i wanna play for syf 2005.
i am not that clever. i'll needa study.
furthermore, the band i play for is not who i wanna play for.
you people who hate me (fr0m band) would probably say
"who will need you to play anyway?"
you know what?! I DON`T GIVE A FUCK if you hate me.
cuz i DON`T fucking like you either.
please pardon me my loved ones. i don`t mean to use vulgarities. :c
and yah. the twe. HA HA HA. all efforts DOWN the DRAIN,
eugene and J. yeap.. you get what i mean?
uh huh. though their tone, technicality and musicality(i think) there..
their not even united. YES, no unity.
it shouldnt even be called a band.
or an ensemble.according to the dictionary,
an ensemble means "thing view as a WHOLE"
well.. my batch got the temasek wind ensemble name.
i think.. for the present batch, they should just change it back to temasek symphonic band
UH HUH.
yes, i am being straight forward. NO, i am not bias.
i`ve never been bias.
so don`t say its because i am born and i live with my batch, that`s why i like them better.
the present batch CAN make me like them. but they aint doing anything.
so, we(cat and me) would continue being NEUTRAL towards present band.
we don`t hate you.. but, we don`t like you either.
so oh well. playing for the concert is only for the sake of the alumni members.
YES, the ALUMNI members.
and, i don`t think they even count us(cat and me) as members of the band anymore.
know why?!
there would be a don`t-know-what gathering at SAS later in the day.
there would be ALL sec 3s and ALL sec 4 na pupils.
WHY AREN`T WE INFORMED BOUT IT?!
jing kai, YES, he told me bout it.
joshua, YES, he asked me bout it.
WHERE are the people from twe?
nono, i should say.. "oh, i'm probably not a 'bandit' no more! yaay"
should i break myself free from this so called family already?
i still care bout them. but what, they don`t give a fuck about me.
if i don`t care, :
i will not even be bothered if there is any band practices.
i will not even be bothered whether there is aa gathering for us.
i will not even be bothered bout the reputation of the band.
i will not even be bothered to practise my flute.
i will not even be bothered about anything concerned to band ANYMORE!
RARRGH.


i still remember this conversation with cat
ME: "cat, today we go back to band together kays? then we practise.."
CAT: " WHAT?! you still wanna go back for band with this kinda results?!?!?!?"
ME: "what`s wrong?"

and i still remember the day i stepped into band room, came out, and cried.
went in, played my flute... all the passers by who walked pass me, as though i wasnt there..
kept my flute, walked out, gave kk forced smile..
walk into the "dark alley", tears burst out and flowed down my pimply cheeks.


all these for what?
TEMASEK WIND ENSEMBLE.

and what fuck am i to them?




an insignificant band member.

~being me, LYNN



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