♥ Thursday, November 11, 2004
this friggin computer is getting out of hand. rarrgh. the first thing was, i opened internet explorer.. and guess what? the main page was
www.pornoneur.com whatever the CORRECT site is. it`s just stupid. all these porn. if only i could stop everyone from watching these OMFG stuffs. christmas is round the corner. love actually. wahahahaha~ i still remember last christmas. oops. did i miss out on something? yes, my...
N` level RESULTS!!! dammit. i`ll get result on the 17th of december..
how nice! right after my birthday, i`d be ripped, torn and chopped. preservation or cremation better? hmmm. help me decide. drop me a tag. =] wee~ what should i do this birthday season? well. i`m not asking anyone to buy me anything. cuz i`ve planned it all already! i am gonna suicide on my birthday. so don`t bother bout presents. i won`t be able to receive them. wahahahahaha~ ok, if only i have the courage to commit suicide. the focus is to COMMIT. wow, what a BIG word. the worst i could do to myself is to poison myself. sleep in the car, turn on the aircon and die by breathing in carbon monoxide peacefully! that is the WORST i can do to myself.. hahaha~ nah.. i love myself too much to do anything like that. i`m loving my life. I THINK.
been quarrelling with my sister over the DARNED computer. rarrgh. excuses she gives to get me outta her room. what?! my computer sucks, can`t you just lend me your computer for a wee bit of your time? eurgh. recently, i`ve got a really sharp tongue. don`t know why too.. it`s like.. nobody can beat my 'reasonings'.. even my sister. believe it or not. she usually says all the blablabla and i just sit there dumbfounded, ignoring her. now, i am doing that to her, making her dumbfounded, with nothing to say.. hahaha~ even cat too. wahahahahahahaha!!!~ but, i am serious.. i give REAL 'information' and not just shoot callous remarks, leaving the opponent hurt and tahla tahla tahla. hahaha~
should i rent a bbq pit for decmeber babies? wahahahaha~ but.. i don`t have the $$$ for the food. dang! eurgh. and i want to call EVERYONE whom i know to the erm.. whatsoever. wee~ sounds fun. yet again.. "$$$CHI CHENG$$$". takers, anyone? no? darn.. >:
i have so many stuffs to worry bout.. wonder i`ll live to see my grandsons.. granddaughters.. and for my adopted daughter and son to bring me for a tour around the world. when i am.. 50? achievable? just hope that i won`t be an abandoned old hag. i really don`t want that to happen. so stop cursing me cat. STOP IT ! haha~ Xb i want to be a happy senior citzen who makes youthful teenagers smile.. and not be a burden to the society.. or people wishing me dead. i don`t wanna become like those paranoid old woman who curses and swears and seen along.. practically almost everywhere. i sympathise (spelling correct?) them. though they don`t need sympathy. it`s just.. how could anyone be so mean to even bear to let their father and mother wander and roam aimlessly in streets or coffeshops waiting fo left-over/unwanted food?! rarrgh!
i`ve been losing sleep and appetite. hmmm. how come? i went to LJS that day. i took a bite of the chicken and felt full. when the mintue before that i was hollering for food. and now? it`s almost.. erm.. 4am? and i am still awake.. digging up events to post on my blog. hurhurs~ wth. nvm. i should just die of what-ever-i-can-die-of... sleepless nights.. rarrgh.. i can eat one meal a day now! cool aye? THIS IS NOT A DIET PLAN. serious. haha~ but i am still not losing weight.. boo hoo hoo!!! muahahahahahahah~ i still have intentions of losing weight though. that`s cuz i am really very heavy. it`s almost to the extreme lo. so short and fat. eeeewww. no way that`s gonna happen. i wanna be tall!!! just luvena`s height will do! i am not asking much. 1.62m lo. ONLY. hahahaha~ impossible for me. :c boo hoo hoo!!! at least i don`t ask for cat`s height. what? 1.7m, 49kg. slim right? someone, ideas for her to gain weight? muahahahahahahahahaha~ her height and weight differs in 120 digits. me? 110 digits only!!! idiot. dang~ shat. gonna sleep now. in case i`d be the pandas in the singapore zoo eating durians. hahaha~ Xb
laughing is a good cure for depression.
make me your cure. i`d be your medicine.
spastically yours, `lynn-.
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