♥ Saturday, January 29, 2005
wee~ life has been great. hahaha~ new year's nearing and i haven done spring cleaning. RARRGH. heh heh.. "YAAY" have to do it tmr. hohoho~ my room has been a mess since.. erm.. LAST chinese new year. muahahahaha~ i'm an extremely messy person. totally cant tell right? wahahahaha~ everyday is passing by so fast. bah. i can't even take time to do my stupid social studies newspaper report. HAHAHA~ hey, it's like i'm the social studies representative.. why? ALL THANKS TO SHEENA AND MOKHSEIN.
mdmsharifa "so who will be the ss rep?"
mok "LYNN AH LYNN."
sheena "CHER CHER, LYNNlynnLYNNlynnlynnLYNNlynnlynn(non-stop)"
moknsheena "cher, LYNN BE SS REP"
mdmsharifa "ok, LYNN will be our ss rep. that it shall be."
me "WHAT?!?!?(i was distracted by other stuffs,wasnt listening..) what did she say mok? i be what?"
mok "you the ss rep"
me "WHAT THE HELL?! CHER CHER, MY SOCIAL STUDIES SUCKS!!!"
mdmsharifa "yes, precisely. that's why you have to be ss rep to be their role model"
me "G R E A T. thanks ah sheena and mok.(pissed)"
crap. that's how it all happened. so I/ME yes, I have to strive hard to be a good ss rep. R I G H T . dream onnnnn... my humanities suck.. and it will... FOREVER. or so i think. =] muahahahahah~ i trying to be GOOD in ALL subjects. i'll try get A2 for ALL subjects. nono, 6 subjects enough. hahaha~ HOPEFULLY. then i'd be HALF as good as eugene. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~ do you think i can make it? hahaha~ well well.. let's see in time to come. *shall i go brisbane with the present twe? i'm having financial problems.. besides.. the people whom i wanna go with ain't in twe anymore. they've.. all moved to other bands. :c and and and, i am not as good as any of the flautist anymore. it'll be a shame if i go there and play all the wrong notes. moreover, i will be having my o's. i needa FOCUS.*
you're my earth
you're my king
you're the only thing that could make me live on for tomorrow
awww.. that was so friggin sweet. but there's stil more, i can't remember. "i give you this ring, as a pledge of my love and the symbol of our unity." the pledge for.. proposal/marriage. 'will you take me as your wedded wife?' woo~ nono, its not that i will say that. but its so.. omg daring. =] anyway, the POP yesterday at st pat's was awesome. their school looks like those england high school. and what, that cornet solo player rocked. woo~ he played the whole school song alone from the third floor. their band rocks.. hahahaha~ well, now that he and he aint doing anything to help him, i wonder what will happen to our band in the next performances to come. since HE insisted that he shall do the job alone and independantly. HA HA HA~ i knew he'd be an arrogant irresponsible.. BLAH. that's why i told all of you to vote for either HIM or HIM. nobody bothered to listen. now all you people can do is suffer fate in the hands of his. XD woo wee~
the past, joy, fun and laughter, has all become what people call yesterday. nothing of it is gonna happen again. the present, sadness, disappointment and loneliness, is all that has happened to me today. 'today is called present that's why it is a gift.' not a gift at all. i am lost in my own world of memories, hoping that it'll revive, all this is but a dream that will never come true. even the person whom i've respected most found himself a new sweetie. and she so happens to be someone close. this jealousy and loneliness that runs through my veins caused much disappointment. i walked down the aisle alone, leaving heavy footsteps that was left unheard. the tears welled up in my eyes. 'dont cry, dont cry' i said to myself. it's pointless doing so much for them yet they never learn to appreciate it. i'll never get anything in return. never! i'm living in her shadow, now. nobody will know my presence, neither will they care about my absence. that's how insignificant i am to them.
my piece of say when i am there. only i mean all to my classmates. and maybe fang they all, no?(so 'the da vinci code') HAIZ. saddening. depressing.
you don't know what it's like to be like meeeeeee
to be hurt to feel lost to be left out in the dark
to be kicked when you're down to feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you
well you don't know what it's like...
welcome to my life.
well.. gonna go into slumberland now.
take care, sugar coated honey dreams all night.
may the sun be shining your door everyday!
9:47 PM;
