faithfulynn.♥

♥ Thursday, March 31, 2005

holler at me if you wish to. i'm to be blamed.

i can't go on. i'm breaking down. everything's a problem. YOU, you, YOU and all of YOU. but.. I'M STRONG. i'd cry for one day, and the next day, i'd be alright. everything's cool and so i say.

solitare, i play.
i'm lonely, standing solo for i know.
i'm neglected, rejected, feeling so dejected.
i'm forlorned.
i live to wallow in self-pity after all i've done.
i took it for granted.
and now, i regret.
it's me, yes, it has been me all along.

thanks to my 5 darlings. thanks for being so patient with me regardless the tantrums i threw. now that i've deserved what i've done, please don't ever evER EVER do that again. i've lost it all. everything.. him, the band.. i don't wish to lose you, my crony.

members of the temasek wind ensemble, SYF, listen up. i don't wish to complain. it's useless, EVERYONE is taking the YOUR side. duh~ i am STUPID. i am just ONE FUPPED SEC 5 ARSEHOLEY NORMAL ACADEMIC STUDENT FROM THE OH-SO-WONDERFUL TWE. no? saddening. even mr chooi says so. "what? they don't care about you? oh.. that is so sad.. oh gosh. that is really SO sad..-smilestomewithsympathy-" tell me, WHO IN THE SYF BAND BOTHERS READING THIS ANYWAY? i mean.. other than my beloved vic?!?!?!

"for us, the performance band people, band is simply a waste of time. there is absolutely nothing much to practise."
"that time i , her and her(names not mentioned) cried because of this."
"FUCK LA. and so its our fault that they left us with nothing to do? and he scolded us for that. FUCK IT."
"eh, you not performing for speech day meh? i thought you in performance band why never play?"
NO, these aren't from me. i've said enough. it's up to the rightful people to look into this matter. it's apparent that the band has drifted apart. i can see the line clearly drawn between PEFORMANCE BAND SYF BAND . yes, the line proves that "YOU ARE NOT UP TO IT -looksaway-AND THEY ARE AWESOME *bounces*" well, get my hint someone?!

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