well well. nothing's been really interesting these days. back to loadsa homework and work and work. OH! speech day's coming. i can't play the tarzan selcections. SO SO SO difficult. and i DON'T really have the time to self-prac. i'd rather go watch some football and calm my nerves. oh damned. i forgot to wish the spsmb good luck today. :x but i bet they won't need it in any way! they'd surely get a gold with 2 honours. haha- if there ever is one. so.. congratulations to whoever's in spsmb and reads my damned blog. hee.



am i paranoid? or i AM paranoid? i don't know.. maybe a lil?
eurgh. i can't take it anymore. i'm going a lil crazy. the stress is burning my brains. it's probable that i study and go mental. "DIEEE!!! YOUR FATHER DIEEE!!! YOUR MOTHER DIEEE!!! EVERYBODY DIEEE!!!!! " haha- i bet you remember these cries. you won't know.. i might join him one day, cursing and swearing, banging my head on whatever's-in-my-way.. just because this world we live in just gets more and more complicating. mother nature takes us at its most unexpected. doesn't she? snap* and people die because of this and that and this and that.




oh. and i realised, chinese mid year papers are like in a few weeks?! what balls are these?! shucks. i can't do SOOOO many subjects. i'm trying. really, i am. but time isn't on my side. really, it AIN'T. months pass like weeks, weeks pass like days, days pass like hours, hours pass like minutes, minutes pass like seconds and seconds pass like split seconds! how bout that?! everything is in a flash. one glimpse and bang* one hour passed. see.. it's alr 13th of april! half of the 4th month in the year is gone! nevertheless, i still have.. another 4 months?!?!?! goodness gracious! that is still so not enough. HAHA- what balls.




on top of all these, i've achieved half of miss nicety. haha- as in those full-faced miss nicety. not those HALF-faced ones. c: wait.. haha- i'm contradicting myself! whatsoever. blaggh. my mum's listening to Mr Fei Yuqing. can't stand his voice. totally. SO gentle that it aggravates me. eurgh.



i'm still in love with no one. and cat, before you know it, i'm getting over him. c: good? i'm a free flying soul. why get attached? stupidity. n u m s k u l l s . bums. but i so lack love. zat hates me. :c and i get really sad when people i love a lot start to hate me. BOOHOOHOO-* x'c cat, emmy, luvena, sheena, zhian, i'm changing for YOU people. for the better, for myself to cherish people and NOT take things for granted(like i always do). c: yeayea. i'm gooooooooood! right. BAKA!



till again! c: loadsa<3 *muah.
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