faithfulynn.♥

♥ Friday, August 05, 2005

wanted to watch happy tree friends but i'm too timid. what the hell you might be thinking! haha. well, i can watch it with a group of friends who'll laugh at it, but not alone. i watched one episode and decided to NOT watch anymore.. haha. i'm such a coward. coward i may be, but.. WHATEVER!
http://www.happytreefriends.com

haven't been seeing mom and dad lately because when i'm home, they aren't back from work. and when i'm leaving home, they'd be sleeping. ): boo. that's not nice. and i still have school early tomorrow morning. shucks. don't like that. i want mom and dad! i need plenty of unseen love.

seriously, i ought to start revising. i'm hoping my life away that i'd do well even without revising. and NO, that is not going to happen because if that'll happen, nobody in the previous batch would've gone to a private school to retake their exams. ): hell. what more, i WON'T go to an ITE nor would i retake o' level papers and re-study in temasek. NONONO. not going to happen.

i heard that marc was going to take visual communications in TP, which is exactly where i want to go. (: that's nice. though there'll be competition between us, at least we've already got someone to trust in the school. well, just hopefully. HOPEFULLY is such a.. self-fufilling word. need to rid it from my mind. boo yea.

sighs. been really emotional and had moodswings lately. well.. not really in the presence of my wonderful friends. or maybe, sometimes. when will i learn to think and not read too much into certain things that will not happen? just when? just who am i to expect so much? why am i doing so little when i said so much? interesting. i'm questioning myself once again. yaay, maybe i could come up with some 200 question challenge all by myself. g r e a t .

she cried yesterday. excuse was "i'm too stressed." . . hmm.. she was pretty hollow all over today but cat and i bought hello panda snack for her and gave a a hug. well, i think that made her feel loved at least. (:
yes, the work is piling on us. BAH. i'm not trying hard enough. SLAP ME SOMEBODY. literally. negative expectations can be a self-fufilling prophecy but positive expectations will lead us nowhere. i have TOO positive a thinking. not, i shall. i'm leading nowhere and that IS the truth. ok, i'm going to get some work done NOW. some f&n stuffs. miss lim, miss lim.

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