faithfulynn.♥

♥ Tuesday, June 27, 2006

ooh. read the blogs that i usually do read. (and luvena!! your blog url is?)

they make me think so much all the time.

OOH NICE!
listening to: STILL - foo fighters
the song is nice. i like.

btw, i was saying.. they've made a huge impact on my life and they'll stay that way. whatever they do makes me reflect. which is good. (: that's why i love them.

she's the one always helping others. willingly, not willingly, she still does it, without showing any signs of reluctance. she makes me think of myself as someone selfish, self-centred shit. like i've never thought enough for the people around me. i never cared to help. i do care a lot, but not as much as she does. she's like wonderwoman. she helps everyone around her.

she... she makes me think i have everything of the seven deadliest sin. anger, greed, lust, gluttony, sloth and pride. okay, maybe NOT LUST cuz i never lust. she loves him like ants love sugar. whether rich or poor. good or bad. dark or fair. she loves him. she doesn't get angry, she always forgives. she works so hard to make things happen for them. as for me, i'm like of total opposite. i never do give in. i get angry over the slightest thing. and when things don't work out, i don't give a damn. HAHA. i'm such a bitch. SUE ME.

she is the strong-headed one. she's always seeking for the better. she doesn't like things to maintain status quo. she has worked damned hard for this day and she still is for the future. and it makes me wonder. what am i? she once told me "you're a jack of all trades but a master of none". THAT hit me hard. that was one of the MOST depressing moments she put me through. and now she's still not satisfied with herself. and that makes me seem like a TOTAL failure. apparently. he/she said "how come she in ___, you in TP engineering? i thought you all always study together?". ARGH! cuz i suck can?

she stands by me, whenever things go sour. she'll hold my hand and accompany me when they walked ahead. i never did cherish her enough and i'm apologetic about it. she's always telling people "no no, you never borrow money from me! since when?!". and when i think of myself, i'm always so calculative. and it sucks when friends become calculative with friends. so i guess, i was a VERY sucky friend.

she always waits on and for me. and never did she complain. she always tells me it's okay. i made her get into the shit that belongs to me. like punishments. crap. all the time we've been treating her bad. but we do love her. she's patient. and i always curse and swear whenever i have to wait for someone. i've learnt to be patient. and till today, i'm late most of the times i meet up with them. i need my ass kicked. ):

THEY. they are guardians. they guided me. LIKE DUH~ i'm the youngest, the most adorable yet annoying crap. i love them. and i'm still unsure whether or not they love me. :\ but i have to say.. shopping at mango is SO TOTALLY NOT FUN. rummaging through stacks of messy clothes are a waste of time! cuz all the pretty shirts will be grabbed by the rest what. HUMPH. -.- love you girls. A LOT A LOT A LOT A LOT.

watched JUST MY LUCK today. it was interesting. well, to me at least. the thought of both of them giving up the luck just to be with each other. the thought of them saying "im lucky now that i have you". the thought of her giving her luck to him just becuase she thinks he needs it more. the thought of.. McFLY!!! whoa. i love dougie. he's like such a loner. HAHAHA. and that's like so totally cute. okay i'm being a bimbo. freak. must be under the influenced of all the bimbotic around me. AHHHHH!!!

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