faithfulynn.♥

♥ Monday, October 02, 2006

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i'm mad about what dad and mom impulsively did yesterday. the worst and most unimaginable thing that could've happened to me. they looked for my idolcoachfriend in the shop. mom told me on the phone last night 'dad went to look for him just now and they had a big fight. dad flared up because he din like his attitude and started scolding him.' first reaction 'WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU ALL DO THAT FOR?!' i shouted over the phone and mom was like 'you don't like you talk to daddy.' and as she was passing the phone to dad, i slammed the phone shut, walked to my room, slammed the door and locked myself in the room. they fucking ruined me, my life, whatever. i've told them before umpteen times if they ever do that, one, i'm gonna hate them, two, never ever talk to them and three, be more rebellious and defiant than i am now. and i thought these rainy days would be over. now a storm rages. dad tried talking to me and called for me after i got out of the bathroom and was walking to my room. i looked at him, looked away, slammed my door shut and locked myself in the room. they banged the door and tried telling me something but i couldn't be bothered to listen to them or talk to them anymore. i blasted my music and cried myself to sleep. they seriously don't know what they are doing. i know i haven been home but i told them i'd be staying over at a friend's place. they are worried yes i know, but they are worried about me doing stupid things. JUST LOOK AT ME, do i look so stupid that i'd go around fucking people? no. and the second night spent out was because i was so tired i fell asleep at simon's place. and there were people like sky, javier, lucas, kat, zhu and greg over there. stupid. what now? MASS ORGY? the last person they should ever look for is him. we weren't even at the shop. we only dropped by on saturday night. and what they have done now is gonna make me run away from home or stay out of the house more. or maybe i'll just live in seclusion. lock myself in the room all day long. i don't want to ever see or talk to them. yes, i'll make this 10 years, 20 years or maybe until i die. read cat's blog. cases of people jumping down buildings. ha, at the age of 15. maybe soon one case of this will be from tampines st 82 block 842g. HA. fucking stupid. now i'll need to patch things up and i don't know where i should start from. all these tears hanging on my cheeks aren't gonna solve anything. i feel like dying now. stupid people. stupidity. stupid. urgh. my life is stupid, i should just go and die.

just like my life ends here.

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