it's funny how someone i've met to be rather ordinary turned out to be so (i don't know what word actually fits the bill).. he was nothing but a mere friend, someone i would normally say hi and bye to and not care about it.

but to him it was something really sincere and something that could leave him going home smiling happy. he thought it was something straight from the heart and stuffs.. to me? hey, i know that guy! say hi lor since i know him.. 'HI HUMAN!!'

it's funny how i got to know him.

he had this funny hair that doesn't suit him. he was petite and good with talking (to girls? customers? i don't know). had a lot of hand gesturing while talking, wears this huge baggy khaki quarts with red shirt. yes, he was working, but he was servicing my friend who had already known him by his name.

something i knew from this was that he was a harmless person. he could be a good someone to teach me how to skate and introduce me to other new friends. it'd be nice to have someone to bring me into this sport.

and yes he did. he brought me to some other people, who were all out to teach and guide me. we all exchanged numbers and taduh! i'm in a group of 'cool' (that's how i viewed the sliders, it was a total of 4 years that i drooled over having to be with them okay!) people.

well, at least when i'm out with these other people, i still had the courtesy of recognising the human and saying hi to him when i do see him around.

and now that i know him, i realise that things that means nothing to me can mean a lot to him. and sometimes when i spout nonsense in a pique of anger, i couldn' t care less about how he would feel. hey, i'm frustrated, agitated, care about him for what!

i'm damn selfish, i should die beside him. haha.

okay. if you all haven't known by now, i'm talking about my very sexy boyfriend lucas ng junjie. (:

i never knew the feeling of being with someone you couldn't initially be bothered about can eventually turn out so.. strong. i'm so full of it now! (: aww. i'm so mushy damn it.

anw, i just wanted to say i've really been mean. cath said this millions of times before, that i ill-treat my boyfriend and then i'd usually go "I NEVER!! I AM VERY NICE TO HIM!!". cath, i'm sorry, i get your point now. haha.




sometimes things can't be viewed from the surface. when you do something, it's not that you like to do it or you want to, but you're being pushed to. like example studying. WHO LIKES STUDYING? you don't like it, but you do it bcus you're pushed to.

then comes working. who wants to work? hey if i already had 100million dollars lying on my bed, would i go out, be a salesgirl and be busy introducing these other rich woman about the new products we have in store? i wouldn't. we don't like it, but we do it bcus we're pushed to.

and now in my situation. trainings. trainings are a chore and who wants trainings when you can already do it? it's for self improvement. no, i don't like to do it but i do it bcus i'm pushed to and bcus i WANT to improve. but on second thoughts.. it doesn't mean it is not enjoyable to stay in a fixed place doing the same things again and again. bcus...

look at what is around you. your friends! whenever there are friends around to accompany you, nothing else matters. bcus everyone's doing it together, bcus we're all in it together. it doesn't mean we have lost the fun that we had before.

it's only on the surface that we're being monotonous by doing the same things again and again, but then think again, don't we all come to a point where we sit down and rest/slack when we're tired? and then it will eventually lead to sitting down on a table, having supper and talking about everything under the sun? things change but people don't.

things are not fun if you look at it with your naked eye. but i have a lot of fun when i'm with the team. we're called a team bcus we do everything together. we eat, we talk, we sleep, we shit, we have period, we drink, we watch movie, we go out together. if others see us in other perspectives, it's of course we're super dull and boring, bcus they never engage themselves with us, how would they know it isn't fun?!

yesterday while we were hanging out at big splash, this stupid ass walked pass our group and said out loud "WHAT A BORING THING TO DO!". excuse me sir, you never hang out with us you can SEE THROUGH that we're a bunch of losers doing boring things? EXCUSE ME, only BORING PEOPLE DO BORING THINGS AND GET BORED by saying what other people do are boring. get it? lol. use your brain luh, don't speak when you shouldn't. and the best thing is, only steven and i heard him. we were cursing him like hell luh, and he just looked back once and walked away nonchalant. you must be drunk, go sober up. drinking kills your brain cells. you must've lost your mind (also known as brain) so don't talk bull.



afterall, we're still the same crazy people doing crazy things, trying to achieve the same old things. we all know we used to be the only people in this sport, but now everyone's doing it so we have to prove ourselves that we are good. i do not put myself in higher authority just bcus i'm with the elites. i'm still nothing compared to my boyfriend. TSK! i put myself in my previous fila skates (YOU KNOW WHEN I LEARN ACID AND SNOWPLOUGH? THAT HARDWORKING SPIRIT?). HAHA. where i just want to learn and be naturally good at the things i do. it's not my duty, but i'd take it. :D
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