i think it's probably about time to meet up with all the friends that i have.
hmm. that's if anybody still has the time to want to be with me.

on saturday, i asked this old friend if he would accompany me to my destination because i would be skating alone (on the very inauspicious 7th month) along east coast park..

the fact that i actually did ask him was because he told me before that he wanted to do something casual like skating or just hanging out with me for just a couple of hours. we were close friends with no platonic feelings (i'm serious). doing simple things like such would actually satisfy him greatly (because he consistently asked if we could hang out together someday) but i never gave him any of my time, sadly that is.

so at that point in time, the time FINALLY came and i asked him if he would do so and he replied with a very casual nonchalant "no.. i'm very tired and i'm going home.."

then it struck me that, when people wanted my time, i NEVER gave them any. and because of my own stupid self, people stopped wanting any when i needed theirs.


1) 50% of them asking me whether i'd be free to do some catching up, dinner and movie etc.
my reply: i'm too lazy at home, i don't feel like going out.. i have a break out and i'm embarrassed. ):

2) 15% of them asking me whether i want to go partying at a certain date and location before hand.
my reply: i'm very lazy to do the make up leh!! but when the time comes, i'll tell you about it, i'm not sure if i can make it yet. and if i can, i'd beep you.

3) 10% of them making 'reservations' to meet up with me earlier so that we can _______ (go blablabla together).
my reply: should be okay. i think i can make it.

4) the remaining 25% are those "SUPER DUPER EXTRA LUCKY" ONES (most probably 85% of the 25% goes to lucas) who got my screwed up self to turn up for the event! YAY!! CONGRATULATIONS!

i think, i'm really quite a shitbag. i'm always too lazy to do so many things. too lazy to get out of the house (that's one never say die habit), too lazy to dress up but i want to look pretty (so if can't look pretty then don't go because very diu lian aka throw face), too lazy to meet up because damn far, too lazy this and that and this and that.

so i've finally decided that i should step up, make my life AND MY FREINDS ONE TOO better instead of spending majority of my time with my dog, television and the computer (other than when with lucas). and i reckon that then, my dog would probably die of depression. haha. aww, that's sad. oh whatever, you know he won't!

i've planned a line of things to do the upcoming weeks.. so if you're interested, tell me and i'll come up with the dates and stuff!

1) partying on wednesdays is okay for me. because hor, IT IS FREE.
i only go to clubs on weds because i don't drink. and if i had to pay to get into a club when all you do is borrow their floor and music to dance with some other awesome people who borrow it too, it's too expensive.

2) movies! hellboy, the mummy, meet dave, journey to the center of the earth and walle.
some out like damn long ago, some coming soon.

3) dinner! ANYTIMEEEEEEEEE! cafe cartel, happy pot, kenny rogers or EVEN MACDONALDS!
i think i most probably can make the time for anyone that i would want to have dinner with. (: but take note that I HAVE A BOYFRIEND, so if you want to be my "xiao de" feel free to date me out one-on-one.


AND TO END HERE I PRESENT YOU (if you do not know) MY VERY SEXY BOYFRIEND!!!



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