well, more discontentment arose after readers read what the other people had insisted. i didn't instigate any discontentment amongst participants. it's what you said that caused more discontent, obvious no?

i shall clean up and make this a finale. i do not want any hatred between the teams because of a competition. and IT IS ALWAYS because of these deemed unfair competitions that makes me feel unjust for my team mates that i have to speak my mind. and unknowingly causing a stir between the people in the opposing team/teams and my team mates. then the competitors in these involved teams will start to hate each other. WHY? why cause such wrath?

we're all the same kinda people, doing the same thing, having the same thinking (most of the times). and because of competitions, we have to make each other such big enemies when truth is, we're all alike. so if you hate me, you hate yourself too.

and, why doesn't anyone realise i'm a female, but i'm commenting about the male category instead? the female competitors were apparently stronger than i am, leaving me with zilch to say. we can all see with our eyes, who are stronger competitors.

and if it is said that "we do not appreciate any unproductive criticisms", why ever would i have a say when it comes to the day of the competition for me to 'VOICE UP LIKE REAL GENTLEMEN if there is UNFAIRNESS'? and not like me to 'SHUT UP and WRITTEN IN BLOG'? it is already ruled out that what i said was unproductive criticisms. so when is it that i can speak my mind when i can't even write it in my own blog diary?

i do know that judges have discussed about whatever that was left hanging, so even if i felt it wasn't correct, the 'judges decisions are final'. that being said, yes IT IS FINAL.

the 'contract' is the 'registration form' that was given to sign, before handling the number tags. it was 2 pieces of paper. it was more than just a name, number tag and a signature, there was "terms and conditions". so whatever that has so much words in a piece of paper and requires a signature is sort of a contract. so whatever happens, you already agreed to sign it. if not, seriously, why the use?

besides, IC doesn't hold competitions because skating and sliding, is a passion. we're not on a mission to eliminate all possible competitors. we weren't forced to do things like "jog from the small macdonald's rink to bedok jetty and back". we aren't forced to be better, it's just a natural talent that was in us and we love it.

can't you just take in the fact that it's good to better than others, and being the best is just a bonus. for example a person born in a family with mediocre income, at least he wasn't born to be a pauper. and having a father who's a millionaire would probably be a bonus.

anw, i would agree with you that all of you are awesome people. but nobody will ever know how good we can be together if we all could communicate.

competitions make people want to be the best, make people unscrupulous, make people beat each other.. and so on so forth. what to do, it's singapore. like my aunt residing in america said.. "singapore people must be ranked. even in school must rank the students, make the students all want to be #1."

so because of wanting to be #1, they are forced to do what they don't wish to, made to cheat in exams, and become so pressurized that they commit suicide. how noble.

i've said enough and don't want to speak anymore. i'm speaking in a neutral tone so if you think otherwise, it's your own assumption.

i was never born a champion and will never want to be one. like my best friend said to me "you're a jack of all trades but a master of none". that felt very insulting at first but come to think of it, it's good that i can do many things better than others. conclusion is that, i will never be the best. so what? as long as i'm fine with it, who cares what the other people say?

i realise that people would want others to see them in a good light. even like wearing a balloon hat in a public area, you have to go through some thinking. like others will think "wha siao lang. in cathay wear balloon hat, think they damn cute.". so? wear balloon hat super sia suey lor?

some of them felt that way, but i just thought that it is you who make out what others' might think of you, but why should what they think of you matter to you at all?
because i don't mind and you don't matter. (:

and so, i proudly donned my balloon hat that my love painstakingly made for me (and many others who didn't seem to appreciate it at all, fuck that). we had our team dinner at happy pot yesterday in makan sutra. watched the fireworks and had insane moments with the balloons twisted by my love. went to cathay for the mummy movie which i did not watch cus i was too sleepy and was sleeping the show away. i will post the photos once i upload it!

and i'm happy because
i am the luckiest person on earth,
to have all the most beautiful things around me
i love it. (:
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