sometimes, i don't think it matters anymore.
if humans really are persistent on realizing what matters to them
they, would be the paralympians.


saw a few clips of the paralymics and the participants pushing themselves to earn some priceless respect. people who can join are those who are handicapped, like missing a leg or two, a hand or two, deaf, mute, blind or those who have a disorder of down syndrome. they of course have their olympics too, the paralympics.

it was really awe-inspiring, to have seen these clips and it got me thinking, i'm an ordinary and normal person, yet i lack all the ambitions they have. they were blinds who could play football. how would anyone know where would the ball be? that's really an incredible feat. Ronaldhino would've broke other people's legs if someone were to make him play football blindfolded.

the type of training these paralympians go through just to be a part of it. Sharp hearing to know where the ball rolls, memorising the position they are in to score the goal in the correct place, intuitively avoid all those incoming opponents.. if you say Ronaldhino is damn good, these paralympians are probably god-like.

i saw a man who had no hands and ONLY ONE LIMB. and guess what, he's a swimmer. tell me what would michael phelps do if he only had one limb? i'm sorry to put all those awesome well-known and idolised people's names as examples but i think these paralympians should deserve more fame than these idols. does anyone even bother watching paralympics? olympics are over, but the paralympics aren't. i think mediacorp didn't do them any justice either, they cut off a lot of the paralympics and only provided the top few finalists clips.

paralympics didn't quite interest me at first too but after those clips where they showed the paralympians crying for joy when they won, wild hand and body gestures of exclamation and such made me change my mind totally. they are afterall humans, a little less-abled than i am but their lives are so much more worthy than mine. they achieved much more than anybody else by pulling through the hardship of being a less-abled person and one with more competitive drive.

lucas and i were discussing, like if we made ourselves handicapped and we participate luh! but then again, if i were handicapped, i would be one of those wanting to end their lives. being handicapped means you're incapable of doing some other things that your body lacks of. i'd be incapable of skating if i lost one leg. i can't see my beautiful friends if i was blind. you know..

sometimes we aren't thankful enough for what was given to us. and at times some make others feel how awful their life is despite the gifts in life they were bestowed with. so maybe these people have to see other more pitiful people to understand that life isn't as unfair as they made it up to be. you reap what you sow. so if you think life isn't great, you made it that way. everything you have is paid for (body & brains), if you don't learn to use it, then good luck and continue the misery you're in. stop giving excuses of self-pity and make others feel bad for you. you live the life you mould, others are not at fault for what you do to yourself.

actions lead to reactions. and it always takes 2 hands to clap.

so i say, i don't think it matters anymore. people who aren't eager as keeping me as a friend shall remain at that.

i'm sleepy, shouldn't have made myself stay up.
GOODNIGHT. i'm gonna sleep.
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