well, trip to kluang was nice. ;) everything was good although most of the plans were cancelled. lol.

i had a bit of fun. we played at a small farm, climbed half of NAN PA SAN(difficult to climb mountain), did a mini adventure trial, shopped, lost 50rm (i don't exactly know how. i'm getting very VERY muddle-headed.) and ate TRUCKS of food..
everything was taken care of. which is great cus if i had to plan each meal, lodgings and location to be in, i'd be in such a huge mess. ;D mummy and daddy paid for most of the meals. kat's uncle brought us around and provided us rooms to sleep in his clean big home.

haven't been out of singapore in a very long time. so i'm pretty satisfied.
even if it was a 1-day trip to johor bahru, i wouldn't mind. singapore is giving me headaches. everything is pricey. BLA. enough said, i'm sure everyone has already noticed that.
and there, another month has passed. i'm hardly catching up. i need a lil time to gasp and rest. sighs.
*daddy and mummy = shawn's parents

the trip to kluang was super short..
and it really made me realise absence makes the heart grow fonder.
wonder how's it gonna be in the future. dang.
btw, i'm such a lucky girl. as told by mummyting, my daddy, nicole dajie and zac.

cath said this "name-of-person-i-forgot said to me before that everyone has to go through some heartbreaks before finally finding the right one. but then i told her lynn doesn't leh! all the boys she likes are very nice to her."
true enough. i thought for a bit. and i am still thinking. i did have a lot of nice people around me. and i did say a lot of mean and nasty things to them to turn them off and they keep in mind what i've said. truth be told, i've said loads of inhumane things. i feel pretty darn remorseful to have said what i always say.

he asked "what were my flaws? you told me to realise it myself. i still can't think of anything." i can't remember. i don't even know i said that. something i said while i were in a fit, people actually do take it seriously. dang. i must've broke a lot of hearts.

and another "i still have feelings for you but you're attached and i don't wanna choose something that i want when it is wrong." and another "no matter what your decision is, i wish you happiness even if it isn't me." wha. thinking back of what people say and what i've done.. i don't understand why i have such great people to even like me when i'm so ugly.

you think i always say "i'm cuter than you lor. come on, obvious." means i have an over-flowing boost of self-esteem. honestly, i have close to zero self-esteem. i'm always afraid that my boyfriend would stray away and fall for someone better. you know, we always quarrel cus i tend to get over-possessive and become jealous easily.


that's why i always shut down halfway even though I DO LIKE THE BOY A LOT. i'll give 1 reason. "i'm very different as a friend and as a girlfriend." i had a lot of potential AWESOME boyfriend-to-be but i turned them down. well, i think i just need them and my boyfriend to know, i have a huge ego but i got NO self-esteem.

hello, i am like eyeless and flawful. i get jealous even when my boyfriend shares his drink with my girlfriend. "knock knock lynn fu. stop jealousy. it's a sin." and i haven't even thought about him when sebast gave me a birthday kiss in front on all the international skaters. dang. :( i'm sorry sexypigu, you know i love your pigu most.

and the boys that i LIKED BEFORE, i did really like you BUT i wasn't ready to commit. i was in the middle of soul searching. i wasn't a player or a heart-breaker. i'm just stupid.

and i admit, i still am. hopeless.
i guess sometimes it's just me.. i love boys! :D

and.. this is how i'm feeling when jealousy kicks in.
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