SARS IS TO BLAME!
ARGH.... i am left at home to rot.. my parents doesnt allow me to go out freely like i did last time! argh... SARS is not killing me but boredom is! damn... i'LL still die in the end! i am really looking forward to the thursday woodwinds sectionals and 4th of april nyp rehearsal... mUuAhAHahaH.. all i do is watch tv, come online and eat... i will become fat in no time man.. pple asked me to do my homework but... i am not the study type... mUuAhÅhAHa... argh... my e.s and my relative are together.. they are in the room rite now.. wadeva they are doing, kissing or hugging i heck care... cuz i dislike that relative of mine... he is so disguisting and pathetic... he is scared of my dog and he actually says my dog is afraid of him.. MUAHAHAHAH! i am like gonna laugh my head off... my dog is only afraid of my dad... MUAHAHA, FREAKO bastard... now he is showing off his 7210 phone wif polyphonic ringtone... like wat a waste (him using tat phone is a total waste man!)!! listening to perhaps perhaps perhaps the disc.. my mum bought it for me on her birthday.. and i din even buy her anithing.. but PERHAPS i would give her 50 bucks ?(not alot but still, it's the thought tat counts..) ARGH ! IRRITATING POLYPHONIC PHONE!!!!! ARGH! ARGH! ARGH! haiz.. *yÄwnZ* wat else could i say?! like bÿe...



-_-" signing off : L¥nÑ
7:33 PM;





i am pissed and vexed. i am pissed and vexed. i am still pissed and vexed. i hate him for me liking him as a god-brother and him finding me an irritant. i hate it when pple find me irritating. blah blah blah. . . wadeva he does, i am not like PESTERING, HARRSSING, DISTURBING and INTRUDING his life k?! just take it that i wasn't god sister who is super duper extra irritating. and for the other god-brother just can't face the truth. advised him but just doesnt care. well, I SHALL LIKE GET OUT OF YOU PPLE'S LIFE. and, not refering to vince or daryl... it is my only 2 younger god-brothers... (like obvious who. . . )


when i die, saw me in the newspapers wif my ugly irritatin face and flip to the next page of the news. like, it's not news, why bother to show info of dead people in the NEWSpapers. (or maybe i should say, this person die like care for wat, the rest of the people are more important.) haha, like everybody hates me. i am like going to cry but shant. like wat for cry over pple who doesnt appreciate me as their frens... if only they had John travolta or nicole kidman as their fren, they would most probably appreciate the friendship wif them.


and this guy 1, he is a so biase. i dunno why i am that close to him sometimes. . . he only sits wif girl 2, be the first to console Girl 2 if i and her were crying at the same time, talks to Girl 2 and, doesnt care about me if Girl 2 is around and only talk to me when girl 2 is not around. . . that is wat i think of him. but i do not know if Guy 1 is really a biase person or issit that i am JEALOUS (like most probably. . .). . . haiz. . .


and wat i think of the band camp is totally wat eugene said on his blog, excluding the smile of HIS FREN was more precious than we wanting to attin a gold kinda stuff... and add something, he pissed me off because he din let me serve the chicken wings to my fellow band members.... stupid eugene... =P muahahaha...
11:41 PM;





BAND IS MY RELIGION. BAND IS MY RACE. BAND IS MY RITUAL. BAND IS MY EVERYTHING.

IF WE WANT A DISTINCTION FOR SYF, WE MUST BELIEVE IN THIS, "WHATEVER YOU ARE DOING, YOU ARE DOING IT FOR THE BAND AND NOT FOR THE AUDIENCES OR JUDGES, BUT BAND ITSELF" ...

AND ROYSTON'S "IF YOU BELIEVE YOU CAN OR CAN'T, YOU ARE RIGHT" ...

AND " FACE THE PROBLEMS, CROSS OUT THE NEGATIVES, AND BELIEVE THE BEST" ..

AND CATHERINE GAVE ME THIS CARD WHICH SAYS "WORK ON YOUR WEAKNESS TO MAKE THEM STRONGER AND USE YOUR STRENGHTS TO DO BETTER"

AND EVERYONE'S "DO NOT GIVE UP" !!!

band memebers, have faith and confidence.and please do not give up. keep in speed, tempo, rhythm, tone, quality, dynamic, whatever that is supposed to be in a band.
have confidence in yourself. and JWT, i guess why we did badly on 3/17/2003 NYP rehearsal was not because we were praised by you and we laid back, relax and took our shoes off... but because the st. pat's band was there looking at us.... listening to wat our band was playing.
we all lost the confidence because we all knew we aint as good as them... that's why we did better on 3/13/2003 and much worst on 3/17/2003... trust me...
1:07 AM;





haiz.... This whole week is a holiday... there is nothing much i could do but just laze around in the house... tomorrow will be going to jewels's house but do not know if i could make... mum complained and din allow me to go... but i think in the end, i'd still go... =)
i dun like him. i dun like him because my dear fren and i planned all that for him and my lil girl.. my dear fren and i planned the outing just to pair them up together! it's not for the fun of just going out and having fun. he said he would go only if my lil girl asked him.... he thinks that my lil girl is wooing him? or is he wooing my lil girl? get it clear MY FREN! well, the whole thing is off because he have simply pissed me off many times. he only dares to sms my lil girl... i told him to transfer all those he would msg to speak to her in real life like face to face... guess wat he said? he said "u can't force me to talk to her because i just can't!"... well, fine then! i wouldnt force u.. do all u want!! even orion said so... if u dun listen to our advice, do all u can and u still won't get her. BECAUSE U CAN'T SPEAK TO HER. SO WAT'S THE POINT IF THE TWO OF YOU ARE TOGETHER AND U CANT TALK?! we are helping u but u just treat it as useless advices... if it wasn't for me, orion and taZ praising u in front of her telling her u were a nice guy, she woudn't have liked u at all. TRUST ME...And i could have said u were just a guy that was on her waiting list, so she could have just cancelled ur name off the list... think this wont happen?! DARE ME! well, wat i, my dear fren and orion did was juz helpless efforts!!!! i guess u could sms her all u want, i am not helping u ANYMORE! MARK MY WORDS! i wont i wont and i still wont. i am not angry. i juz think u are not a guy in the tradition that would ask the girl out, approach and talk to her and stuffs. so wat if it is a new generation?! i think all guys should make the first move. so does all girls...
my lil girl is thinks tat way too.i know her too well.. she wouldn't tell a guy tat she likes him because the guy would do it. and u? waiting there like A PRINCE for her to propose to u. i am not racking my brains anymore, i am cleaning my hands off all these LOVE AFFAIRS of ur's. i am juz gonna sit aside looking at u trying all u can to woo her... HA .HA .HA .
tat's all for today my shitty ass... I love everybody that was on the 3/11/2003 10:19:51 top 20 list except YOU. u have dropped into the bottom 100 list... good luck to u MY FREN. good luck in SMSing my lil girl...
1:45 PM;





ALICIA KEYS, WHY DO I FEEL SO SAD

Friends we've been for so long
Now true colors are showing
Makes me wanna cry oh yes it does
Cuz I had to say goodbye

By now I should know
That in time things would change
So it shouldn't be so bad
So why do I feel so sad

How can I adjust
To the way that things are going
It's killing me slowly
Oh I just want it to be how it used to be

Cuz I wish that I could stay
But in time things must change
So it shouldn't be so bad
So why do I feel so sad

You cannot hide the way you feel inside I realize
Your actions speak much louder than words
So tell me why oh

11:20 PM;





hahah... well well, taZ said i never update my blog so here i am now to update my blog....
hmmm... last sunday just said that i can't stop myself from liking him and today, i am telling u guys all the devotion(hmmm... issit the right word to use?) is gone!«
MUAHAHAHAHAH!!! »his birthday is coming real soon!« sat at century square food court signing our names and me, racking my brains on how to sign nicely... i wanted
to make a nice impression rather than just writing happy birthday... noraA aka kniodogE, HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE!!! on my BLOG!!! see how nice of me to
do this rite?!? ¦b can't wait to go for NYP rehearsal, band camp and most of all australia!!! ARGH! it's like have to wait for a year to reach the november holidays?! havn't
even march holidays hor. . . dºt dºt dºt. . . haha, thursday is a BIG day! haha, can't wait to just skip that stupid Janki Verma's lesson!! MUAHAHAHAH! haha, i believed i
flunked my history test... though i copied some notes from the text book when she wasn't around and i was sitting outside the AV theatre... HAHA, dumb bitch. LIKE
OOPS!bored... well... stop here.... just wanna say I LOVE THE YO GANG PEOPLE, russell, ke kang, benny(haha, sec 1), wendy, sheena, zhi an, catherine, thaddeus,
jodin, kai xiong!
I LOVE YOU PEOPLE! ¤mUaCkS¤ respectively by class, register and level... HAHA... ¦b
You are a Rebecca Blood.

You are worldly, well-spoken, not afraid to share your opinions and are always open to new ideas.
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10:19 PM;





ermmm... i still dunno who edited my status as taken so... CHANGE IT BACK! the truth is i am single, unattached and not taken! i am still alone... dotZ... i would be happy if some one wants me!!! ¦b hee... well... BUT I WONT BE SURE IF I WILL LIKE THE PERSON! today wanted to.... and he pushed u away and.... left... ¤ and day by day... closer ...u.. (Sorry for the incompleted sentences but try filling in the dº+S?) Heheheh... hmmm... »his birthday coming!!!« today Mr Meryl Whamoff praised us and said we did real well... i wonder if those are true...I and Mei Ling were on could 9 when we heard tat... wrote JIA YOU and stuffs on the top of the score... so happy... we had a converstion and said, he was the first conductor who praised us.. so i believe it was juz a FLATTER... didn't talk at all and observed him... well.. stopping here.. gtg study Home econs... like got reprimanded by Miss Lim Chek Guay... b|æH! ¦b
10:58 PM;





Well... Today has been a long day... The seconds dragged the minutes and the minutes dragged the hours... Hmmm... Nothing much happened today but juz wanna talk about Guy Q... Just read Ke Kang's blog and felt like talking about having a crush or true love... I dunno wat's up with him... He makes me feel that he likes me, though i know it's not true. My adored kor told me it was male egoism and i think so too, because it is so very true and obvious that he likes that girl... but i dun get why does he wanna make me feel that way? What does he gain from doing this? So that i would like him even more? He flirts around and stuffs, but i dont care cause i flirt too (like everybody does)...He did/asked stuffs that made me wonder "Does he like me or something, is he trying to imply something or what?"... Or issit because of male egoism? I cant help myself from liking him, but what for like a person who doesn't like me? My sister once told me :"learn to like the person who likes you and not to like a person who does not learn to care for you." I looked at Guy A and thought, should i like him again or continueing likng Guy Q? I tried to like the person that liked me but i just cant help it... I am really very sorry! The sight of Guy Q makes me forget about what my sister told me. But now, got a Guy S like me.. HåHå.. BHB VIRUS ACTIVATING AGAIN! Wonder i should like him... Hmmm... Well, asked orion for some advice online but after telling him everything, he needed to go offline(sorry ah, needa mention u. =P)... Dºt Dºt Dºt. . . ("-_-) Got nothing to say lor... HåH... Well well, same as ke kang, i need some advice, whether to stop liking him (though i know action speaks louder than words, mine is words speak louder than action...) or find out what he is thinking by asking him?
10:14 PM;





Today was like the most "WONDERFULIEST" day because almost the whole of YO! gang was out together for lunch... except for alan, jewels and tim(these names can mentioned rite?) who was held back b'coz of some reasons... hope they were there to enjoy the moment (of lunch) wif us... took photos wif aaron, orion, zhi jian and ROYSTON(in caps because first time call u royston...=D) after band because wanted some sweet memories to be remembered since they are leaving this year end..... so fun... WELL, if these people aorund me ain't the best people that god could have gave, then who were? the YO!'s might be mental and nutty but still, we confront and comfort one another when we are in deep thoughts of troubles(sounds weird)... well, MATCH-MAKING was the most common things of all... but i find it FUN! teasing and helping a person get the punk or chick was one of the things the YO!'s could have done.. and Mr zat and vince was two of the best alumni band members! they rock! (do u ever see ur senior members as often as u see them?) =D sadly/unfortunately/miserably/terribly/cheerlessly/heartbreakingly, majority of the YO!'s are sec 4's andthey would be leaving the year end! i can't bear to part wif these god's masterpieces... =..( BUT, the sec 4 YO!'s, after the O's, please BE LIKE ZAT!!! come back like every band practice! PLEASE! well.. i guess i have to end here now.. spending too much time on the internet these few days...=) gee...



.: i would and i will always do, cherish the times that i am wth u... for u are the one's who will accompany me through, god bless u! :.
9:30 PM;