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♥ Wednesday, September 27, 2006

the conversation that hasnt been going on for a while...

270906 / 18:27

Mr HaHa : Shafooasaurus says:
if i ever go to singapore and see you
Mr HaHa : Shafooasaurus says:
i'll run up to you
Mr HaHa : Shafooasaurus says:
and hug and kiss you
Mr HaHa : Shafooasaurus says:
hahaha

(:

? .beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart.© [ novreset -> gambatte ] ??? ø¤º° ??lynnee?_? °º¤ø says:
watching porn ah?
? .beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart.© [ novreset -> gambatte ] ??? ø¤º° ??lynnee?_? °º¤ø says:
LOL
Mr HaHa : Shafooasaurus says:
woman if i am, does it turn you on
Mr HaHa : Shafooasaurus says:
!!!!
Mr HaHa : Shafooasaurus says:
but no
Mr HaHa : Shafooasaurus says:
sorry can't turn you on today
Mr HaHa : Shafooasaurus says:
don;t really feel like porn

i looooovvveeee shawn foo jong kiat. so cute.

lols. nono. i'm not thinking what YOU are thinking. :D anyway, it was nice to talk to him since we haven't contacted in what.. half a year?! well well. i'm off to play now he's offline. MAPLE MAPLE! MY 4 DAYS BREAK IS REALLY.. 4 DAYS T_T i havent levelled up since saturday. sadness. bye bye sweethearts. (: i'm loving today more than any other day.

oh, i just listened to this song and i remembered i wanna post the lyrics of it from nong nong ago. ha, here goes..

my special angel-ger [from the teenage textbook movie]

i took for granted of those days
thinking nothings gonna happen in my way.
no im wrong and i regret
for the things i did and things i said
come back to my life once more
so my aching heart wont hurt no more

im telling you
you're my special angel
show me the way
there's just that there is no one who can ever take your place.
bring me back the days before
there is so many thigns you have to learn from us all

i question why you left that day
didnt say good bye and left your way
where was only what you gave
the image will never fade away
i memorise the things you said
and i carry on until im dead

im telling you
you're my special angel
show me the way
those children need your loving
in each and every way
all i want is only you
take me now, take me far away

tears before my eyes
hanging on forever
share where the dreams go broken
in all through the lives
words you always say before
tell me now that you'll leave no more

you're my special angel
show me the way
there's just that there is no one who can ever take your place
words you always said before
tell me now that you'll leave no more
cuz i know you're the one
that im waiting for

6:34 PM;

♥ Tuesday, September 26, 2006

i cannot move under this heavy burden do i sink.

been going out with dad and mom a lot. to jack's place on sunday at pp for a feast. mom bought me two pairs of perlini silver's earring. wanted to buy a ring for me. lols. BECAUSE I WANTED A PAIR. so i could wear a couple ring BUT with my mom. :D haha. so i told her "next time people ask me who my boyfriend is i tell people 'my boyfriend is MY MUMMY!' then we wear same ring go out, cool ma!". then she told me "if you want, i buy one for you, you wear for fun. i don't want." lols. xD then i told her "AIYA, don't buy la. next time when i get a boyfriend then i ask him to buy. OKOK?!" then she gave me THE look. wahahahaa. so funny la. on

monday, went out with mom after my supp paper. bought a pair of crocs. YAY, FINALLY! and yiwen bought her crocs pumps. look so much like kelly's (barbie doll's daughter) shoes. ha. but it was cute. ((: then to kimage for a haircut. FINALLY TOO! I CUT MY HAIR!! SO HAPPY PLEASE! i have a tail. LOLS. the hairdresser la! he was damn funny. haha, i like. will go back to that kimage for haircut. had an almost-family (nikki wasn't there) dinner at uncle ah zai's place. it was at kaki bukit? ha. nice nice dinner. i love my family. but times are so tough sometimes it pisses all of us off. arrgggh.

then mom blew up today again. T_T nik blew up too. i couldnt help it and flared up too. argh. nevermind. life has its highs and lows. if everything was smooth sailing, the happy times wouldn't seem happy. it'd just be normal everydays. well. i will vacuum the floor today. i MUST vacuum the floor. if not dad and mom's burden will be so heavy. i will try my best. argh. should i work?! i still have approximately a month of hols. RAHH. maybe i should.

hope cat will pass her promos! sheena will get a rest from her attachment and find her beau.. zhian will be happy with shak! :D ha. and let me be.. the shithole i always am! wahahahahahahaha. OH! AND DAD AND MOM'S BUSINESS TO TURN FOR THE BETTER!!!!! everyone around me to be happy! I'll always be here for everyone. just beep meeeeee! :D THAT'S ALL FOR TODAY. i'm off to play. hahaha. I WILL VACUUM THE FLOOR DON'T WORRY! hahaha. love all <33

singing, thinking. heaven knows - kelvin chen weilian.

1:38 PM;

♥ Monday, September 18, 2006

i locked myself in the room tonight.

nobody knows how i'm gonna sleep tonight.

and when they do, they know i'd be gone.

on the bed i lay.

in a pool of blood.

in heaven or hell i'd be already.

and i'm free from this suffering world.

maybe by then they'll know how hurt i felt.

then maybe by then they'll start to appreciate me.

i'm tired of carrying the blamesSSsssssSSs. it is ALWAYS my fault. why? why?! WHY?!?!?!?! it's not that i'm shunning responsibility of doing things but.. rahh.. not like they'll get to read my blog. they should watch I NOT STUPID 2 until they understand the show and me. (':

WO BU AI -

STEFANIE

SUNYANZI

10:00 PM;

♥ Saturday, September 16, 2006

headache.

heartache.

that's it. enough of me. itpesondpiad. x_x

lynn died today.

nono, i'm just taking my leave. fuga. that is what i am doing.

more words said, more hurt done. i'll just shut up.

12:45 AM;

♥ Thursday, September 14, 2006

i'm apart, not a part in their lives.

if only they could bring themselves to be in my life. i love doing that. but they've never seriously done it with me. once is never enough to know how much fun there is doing it. she's superior. no doubts. and i can only be that much to them. if they aren't interested in the things that i'm interested in, i guess there aren't a lot we can do together. i'm not so much into dancing anymore. i'm not into shopping. i'm not into grooming myself like a doll. i'm not into boys. i'm just mutating. lols. into someone that i never was. if i am the one changing, they have to adapt to who i am now. i've always been trying to fit in. and now i've found my sense of belonging.

listening to`motorcycle drive by - third eye blind.

feeling emo. and the only thing i can do is to cry my hearts out.

12:32 AM;

♥ Sunday, September 10, 2006

are cabdrivers earning an honest living? i seriously don't know.

cabbed home today with steven, brandon and bong. the driver drove really fast. he stopped steven first. then brandon. so he asked us (bong and i) what route should he take from BEDOK AVE 2. route from bedok ave 3 (which goes to simei ite that part) or bedok reservoir. of course we took the bedok reservoir route la! and so we assumed the driver's route. so he went to a god-knows-where bedok reservoir. and i saw the ASSUMED bedok reservoir route opposite, across the reservoir. get it? LOLS. which means this freaking cab driver DAMN clever. he think the clearwater/aquarius by the park bedok reservoir got road block. so he turned one whole freaking big round la. i was damned pissed please. and it is NOT the first time already. so i wonder, why cab drivers usually drive so slow? or why when cab drivers drive fast, they take the damn long route? they are NOT honest. they cheat our money. so do we say that they are earning an honest living when they are not honest? sighs. well, i'm not steorotyping. so if you DO have recommendation of a super duper ultra good/god-nice cab drivers, do introduce them to me. ((: tyvm.

fit for all event today at ecp was damn fun la. lols. (: dragon was so long and heavy la. haha. and it rained near the time when we were supposed to end. had loads of fun. lunch at macs was awesome. thank you moomoo for the provided lunch!! xD LOVE YOU A LOT. and for the halls sweet. SOOO NICE. i love ic. i love the people around me. you all rock. everyone's so nice. i feel so lucky. ((:

well i think that's all for today people. love hearts.

10:58 PM;

♥ Wednesday, September 06, 2006

i'm sick to my bones.

this is damn saddening. i haven't been sick for a long period of time. and now when i am, everything just hits, BOOM*. i'm having fever+throat infection+difficulty breathing+cold. sweet. i'm feeling sleepy but i can't sleep. i can't breathe properly and it's totally screwing my mood. how i hope somebody would be able to take care of me. i want to be in the hospital. haha. x: boohoo. i hate being sick. i hate eating medicine. i hate doctors. it's like a dentist symptom. i won't see a doctor like some who won't see a dentist. rahh. okay i'm starting to talk nonsense. my fever has subsided but i'm feeling damn weak. )): good bye people. i have nothing to say. i want to sleep. i can't so i'm going to play maple. ha. x_x

11:59 PM;

♥ Friday, September 01, 2006

HELLO WILSON p2! ((: hahaha. i can't tag. yes yes, i saw you in far east. LOLS. shopping with maria. damn cute please. haha. SOOOOOOOO sweet la.

anyway, i'm not in east coast. wow, amazing. i'm startiing to feel the weariness already. ): no, not of skating but.. i've been trying so hard. it just boils down to the same conclusion. maybe nothing's gonna work out for me. i'm just stuck holding on to this. ha. mom kept asking "why never go skating?! you all quarrel ah?!" what is there to quarrel about? lols. maybe it's cuz i want to avoid some people and shirk responsibilities. i'm tired. maybe i should just do well for supp papers first then go back skating. i know i'm gonna fail for the exams. argh. how disappointing. everything's failing me. ):

teachers' day visiting yesterday was cool. HAHA. i'd never know i could feel so old. all the kids still remember me. (: that is nice. and oh my i'm still so well-known. HAHAHA. i thought some people would actually see me and then go "omg.. it's her, run!! run!!!!". even the indian girls cat and i USED to quarrel a lot with waved to us. :\ hmm. that junior shouted out to me. WOW. cool. and also, she, she smiled and waved so enthusiastically to me. wait, is it me or.. everyone has become nicer? HMM. lols. and in the morning i was telling sheena, "I HAVE BECOME A NICER PERSON SO I WILL BUY YOUR MEAL FOR YOU." lols. i used to be the one sitting down and sheena will be the one buying la. ((: now it's only right that i do something for her. after seeing mdm sharifah, mdm ma, miss lim and mr YONG(i actually screamed out MR CHOOI when i saw him. :x OOPS.)!!! i felt that.. oh my i'm missing secondary school. before stepping into school i was telling myself my am i glad i've left the school. HA. i keep contradicting myself. tsk. the guys are still as wonderful as ever. marc and yanda din come though. sad. oh well. after all the visiting, we headed to town. ate at suki ramen. but only the four of us. ((: cat said "this feels as though we've never seperated. it doesnt feel as though we haven't met up for long.", and she mentioned "we never cried during our graduation night because we know that graduation is nothing close to us having to seperate." true enough. i felt soooooo nice after meeting up with them and our class people. i missed them, definitely. since i've been MIA-ing from the class gatherings and got too overly obsessed with skating. well now, i need time out.

good night people. so much for today's update. till next time then.

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY to the teachers. (:

9:05 PM;