wassup?!?!

what the hell is wif all those "information"/'important"/"hi"/"hello" e-mails?!?!? i get over 20 of that a day!!! like what the hell is up ?! argh... delete one, another one pop up "u have one new e-mail from "i-dunno-wadeva-shit-e-mail-it-is"....."
like... freaking irritating can?!?!?!

hey hey.. have the juniors been practising ur instruments?!?!? i have!!! i practise almost everyday after i come home! and i play my flute for about.. 20-30 mintues each time i pick it up! mUHAhahhahhahAhhahhAH.. i bet u guys haven been practising. u all better do... if not go back to band... the sound very terrible arh... i will skin all of those pple who sound TERRIBLE ALIVE!!!! understood!?!?!? now, ALL OF YOU GO PRACTISE. not every note in ur score!!! but every note in the b flat scale! play it about.... 4 times.... per b flat scale! everyone better sound better than it was when we left the band room the last day we went there! -BEWARE!!!-
now i have practised the journey of the few soloist thingy. i can play the whole thing correctly.. not too musically yet but still.. id try. so.. i juz hope i dun get tensed up and cock up on the actual day! cuz i have no idea why i will when it was the speech day rehearsal thing.. then... argh.. so.. disappointed in myself. then on actual speech day then turn out right.. budden!!! i forgot after the journey we playing the i will survive!!! mUAHhahHAhahhahahahAH.. dunno if some of u noticed that only tim was playing.. bWAhahHAHhAhAhAHAh.. :b please bear wif all this past being brought up.. cuz i am totally bored. aRgh.. -_-ll

by the way, is initiating or making the first step a very difficult thing to do??? i dont get it. does he/she not know how to make the first move?! since it is he/she who like her/him. hint hint~ to the person whom very much reads my blog. muHAhHAhAhHAhHaahAhAHhAA.. that person like that, YOU also like that. haiz.. disappointed in both HIM AND YOU. haiz.. tsk tsk tsk.. well.. i am different! at least i do initiate or approach the person. but oh well.. doesnt make much of a difference for my case either. it just doesnt... flow.. mUAHhahhahHAhAhHAhAhAH.. dong dong arh! stupid idiot.

anyway, i very much want to write about the things happening in my class but i shant. there is this... sort of... "photocopier" who reads our blog and copies out those rumours and gossips.. so i cant write much here now that it is UNSAFE for me to do so. for YOU reading my blog, u read and KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT. it is not a public thing k?!?!
-:::MORON:::-

anyway, i am lovin my life except for that one lil thing that bothers me. NO INITIATIVE. so.. aRgh. i am getting tired of it. k?
~pleasetaketheinitaitivetomakethfirstmove~
*laughsoutDAMNloud* lYnN fU xUan liN ;D
9:29 PM;





uRk hUms..

was going through everybody's blog. noticed that.. everyone's blog has its bitter and sweet... really interesting.. but some pple.. haven updated their blog for years.. hint hint~
she has not been like this at all.. till she found him. i guess she really loves him. NOT TALKING BOUT ZHIAN HOR. someone else.. no wonder she look so moody and disturbed the last few weeks.. now that their back.. she is so full of love.. did not know true love could do such wonders.. hope he really really really really, truly truly truly truly, loves her a whole lot more than she does. *praysrealhard*.
yeah..! like i finished my period liao. mUAhhahAHhahahHAhAhhA. :b feeling awkward reading this huh? oh well.. it is my blog wat.. had really bad moodswings.. hope cat they all din get anything bad from it. really been very moody.. dunno for wat particular reason oso. din talk at all during one of my period days. feeling real depressed, for totally no particular reason either. hmMmMmmmzz.. nv had moodswings at all for all of my periods before.. until these month.. real weird.. uRk..
tmr is sheena's birthday.. shared her prezzie wif cat. after finishing make-do-wif-it, lend me hor! i oso wanna 'use'.. mUAHhahAHhahHahhAhAHA.. ;b sing u birthday song in advance! HAPPIE BITHDAY TO YOU! HAPPIE BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPIE BIRTHDAY TO SHEENA!!!!!! HAPPIE BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!! mUAHhAhAhahhAhhahahAHhahahA... ;b lA-mEeei..

~wadevaihavedone,ihopetobeforgiven~
lynnfu.dementia.utopia.euphoria.
10:42 AM;





no band no band no band...... bored bored bored...... mUAHahHahahahhahahHa... rwite. no-band life has been a total bore. no music no nothing. plain boredom. uRgH. sucks man. now in the computer lab... supposed to have p.o.a but mr tan is unknowingly not here... so we are... lazing over here... god damn boring.. had compostion exam today... i hope i do well in this exam. very very well. i dun wanna be last of all trades or wadeva fuct it is.. :b sorry for the vulgarity.. hmMmM... boring.. never seen glosz.. kinda miss him..? mUHAhahAHhahAHHAhah.. nah.. i miss the music la.. yeah.. at last he confessed. so fun.. yeah. naif is beside me.. muahHAhahAhahHAahhAA.. he told me to type this.. mental boy.. reading wat i write.. so kpo for wat sia..?!?!? :b mUHahahAHhahahHahhahaaA... muntaz is mental too.. laughing at dunno wadeva shit... mUahhaHAhahhahahahA.. this computer is lagging like hell.. god damn slow.. slow slow slow slow slow slow slow slow slow.... i am dying.. of.... boredom... tranquil.. aggravated.. peaced out.. my fingers are frozen.. ok... going off liao.. cuz kinda bored...
12:32 PM;





there aint no band!!!

oh man.. HOW CAN I SURVIVE.. without band for like.. wat... 3 weeks..?! argh! almost foget there aint no band tmr..!!! juz remembered.. if not ill be at the band room tmr at 2.30.. waiting for eugene to open the band door.. hUmphs* aRgh.. i dun have examz.. aRgh arGh aRgH. dArn it man.. it sucks playing the flute alone.. all alone in the house.. no 'accompaniments' and all.. the clarinet and saxophone and all the other big instruments... hUmpHs.. gonna rot and die tmr man.. dun even feel like going to school since there aint no band to look forward too. rot rot rot. bLeaH* sick totally.. but oh well.. the 'o' level taking sec 4s!!!!! all the best in your examz!!! ALL YOUR EXAMZ MUST DO VERY VERY VERY WELL K?! GOOD LUCK! but oh well.. who needs the luck..? when all of the bandits are so clever(excluding me) and because nobody even bothers to read my blog.. except for like.. sheena cat and zhian.. fine.. nobody in band like me anymore.. so might as well juz... quit band... arGh.. hAizX.. so sad.. timothy... go jc or poly liao then.. i will be left alone.. wif the... juniors who doesnt like us.. as in me and tim.. or mebbe.. they like them better than me.. oh well.. WHO DoESNT...?!?!?! all of the people in band favour tim and hates me.. he is so.. musical.. so talented.. so intelligent.. while i am like.. all of the opposite. unmusical.. not talented.. and stupid.. who will like someone JINXed than to one all-rounder rwite..
oh well.. fine fine fine.. love tim then.. envy and jealous bout him.. but.. well.. he is one guy i would learn from.. handle things so well.. cant take it can. so.. smart. arGh. :b i love my timmy dearie.

GOOD LUCK TO PEEPEES TAKING 'O'LEVELS WOR! ALL DA BEST!
~lovethosewholovesyouandyouwillstandtogain.lovemethen!~
*laughsoutloud*lYnNeTtE

11:23 PM;





well.. mebbe afterall.. he wasnt that bad..

LAST MESSAGE FROM SHAKTHI..

er ok....actually no... neva wanted to whack you...... n i haven fucked... yeah yeah.... bastard ten bastard... ure not a bitch or wadeva foolish nonsense i said... i made tiz mistake on cheatin.. fuckD... why e hell did u cum barkin at me all of a sudden ?? wad e hell did i do to ya /? i din screw u up in anyway... i tot u were real nice n everythinten suddenly lik tiz.... argh wadeva .. u all dun lik me... be tt way... i haven done shit tat wud really mAKE ya hate me... i will neva touch a gal 4 as long as i live.. if i wanted i cud haf screwed sum ppl totally... n i wudnt beat up let it b a gal or guy.. if he or she has been my fwen... u juz stepped my tail.. i dunnoe wad e hell made ya blow up wif me... but if it was ya fwen zhian i ve said sorry to e othaz... mayb ive haven to ya... sorry.. well if it iz sum otha probz.. tell... i hate havin enemiez.. i dun knoe if ya knoe tt.. i din mean on usin wordz lik whore n shit.. i was juz pissed.. u wanna hate me go on...

ok.. things is sort of settled la. just as long he doesnt call me a bitch or a whore anymore. i wont shout back. zhian arh zhian.. i am sorry too.. if i brought problems for you.. argh.. seeing u all alone now and we not talking to u.. i felt kinda guilty.. but i dun get why u wanna do this too.. we were juz helping u but u defended him.. ok.. mebbe afterall he isnt tat bad.. haven seen the extra good side.. only saw the extra bad side bah.. ok la.. not that i am putting my hands of u.. i entrust zhian to shakthi.. (like woah..) but if zhian comes to school crying one day.. i would approach shak AGAIN. haiz.. sorry leh zhian.. dun scold vulgarities liao can..!? dun so vulgar.. juz aint the good girl zhian.. must study oso.. please.. i beg u.. but dun get better grades than me.. mAUahhAhAHAHhahAHhahAhhAHhhahAhhahAha.. :b bLEah* take care. goos bless u zhian and shak. god bless ya' all.

ok.. hAiz.. love is blind bah.. seeing zhian doing countless forgivings... hMmmMmmMm.. forgived shawn foo too. cuz he said sorry la.. but.. oh well.. everything is over.. it has to be forgotten one day.. i love everyone.. really serious. EVERYONE. now i , michelle and mabellyn ok liao.. we say hello.. smile smile and all.. then vanessa... sec 2 one. the really pretty one.. used to hate her to the core cuz me and cat say she pretty.. i smile to her then she diao me.. like wat sia.. but after sports meet, cheered up for her cuz she ran.. then.. we became.. friends too!! mUahahHAhAhAHhaHAhAHHAhahAh.. she say hello to me today lor! (like woah..) actually all the pple i used to not like also like me one.. very friendly but have attitude problem.. :b mUAHhahAhAHhahahhAhAhahhahAhA..

wadeva it is.. SPREAD LOVE! love ur enemies and pray for ur porsecutors. if u only love those who love u, what reward is there? ok, i hate to say this.. erm.. i.. love.. melissa.. bLeaH* oh well.. love all and i would stand to gain.. love love love.. mUAcKs* take care everyone! world peace!

~thingsarentalwayswhattheyseem.itcanbetalkedout.~
lYnNeTtE dA aBsOlut bItcH

8:11 PM;





SECOND MESSAGE FROM THE "ALMIGHTY" SHAKTHI

haha so??? bitch bitch bitch bitch Shawn or sean dumped ya bitch.. dun tok so much.. haha at least i neva leave my gf lik e way he did to u bitch!!!!!!!! hahaahhaha i two time so??! luvena doez tt.. haha mistake done n repented...... get a life bitch. zhian lovez me i love her.... ttz e way it iz whore... i dun gif a fuck wad u think. u fuck up wif me... ill fuck bak rite at ya whore..... n u betta tell me to watch out.... hahahahah coz im scared..... i dun gif a fuck bout wad u n ya think bout me... coz u shorty aint no motha fucka 2 me.. u brin uncalled fuckin probz to me.. i can fuck bak at ya 3 timez more... n if u think im in for shit... tell me to watch out... or rather go sit somewhere n cry over ya shit life whore!!!!! =)

and he says.. he doesnt give a fuck about wat i think of him (the words are in bold), why does he wanna whack me?! this doesnt make much sense. hHAhahAhhAhAhAhahAHHAhA.. well.. gotta say he doesnt (brackets).. mUAhahAHhAhah.. i am short but I STILL HAVE PEOPLE WHO LOVE ME THE RIGHT WAY!!! AND I STILL LOVE THE WAY I AM! and i emphasize on the "SHIT LIFE" ... uh ah uh.. that isnt right.. cuz my life ROCK 100000000000 times more than urs! u think u have faithful people loving ya i dun have la?! i have 10 times more people who loves me k?! DUMB.
like woah.. i realise his subject of language is of vulgarities, vulgarties and of course MORE VULGARITIES. he says he wanna whack me.. and i guess is gonna whack me some fine day.. oh well.. i din create any troubles/problems wif him.. he juz "cared" too much.. i was just telling my best friend to be wary of a unworthy guy..? is that wat trouble/problem is?! eRm.. not too logical over here... ANYWAY,, to get facts clear yah, it was a silent break.. he did not ditch me.. mUAhahHAhAHhahAhhAhAhA.. C: stupid pple assume things to be that way which is... unfortunately.. not true.. and.. that makes them make a fool outta themselves.. what can i say..?! they enjoy doing so..?!
and i did so to myself today!!!! i have to say a BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG sorry to the... basketball guys..?! or the group of guys screaming "DAN ZHONG JIA YOU!!!!"... i am very terribly and miseribly sorry!!! i thought they were shouting "ZHEN ZHONG JIA YOU"(i thot it was zhen zhong until luv and cat told me it was zhong zhen, not zhen zhong.)as u know.. i am quite deaf these days.. i thought they were cheering up for zhong zhen (chung cheng high in chinese) so i shouted very absolutely loudly "SHUT UP LA!!!!!!" then my voice echoed.................. then alota pple hear... then they were like... (._.)? "huh?!?!?" kinda faces.. like.. "they cheering for us.. why u so angry..?!" i am partially deaf.. so i am........... abit deaf............ so i heard wrong things and thought of wrong things and then.......... scolded wrong pple... i am SO SORRY!!! and partly because i was parnoid wif the.. juniors sitting in my area who were totally NOT ENTHU. i shouted at cat too... which was like... i am so sorry... i juz went mental la... so embarrassing.. i dunno where to hide my face anymore..... :c

and still worried... i will definitely be whacked by that guy, who is like.. zhi an's HUBBY... -_-ll uRgh. that is a sure yes yes.. but i mean... he will get into more trouble if he does tat... cuz i did not do anything to harm him or nethings... so... wadeva la... cuz i cant be more bothered wif him... bLeah* waste my precious time only.
GIVE ME MY MAHDI!
all i am thinking of now.... is mahdi mahdi and more MAHDI... he is all over my... face..?! mUAhahAHhAhahAhahHahA.. brain and mind la.. :b dongS~ i love my mahdi darlin! mUAHahHAhAHhAHahHAhAHAH.. it is like.. yah rwite... as if we together kinda stuff.. ;b

i cant be bothered wif any thing concerning zhi an and shakthi le... poking in my nose will juz make my nose get chopped off.. i dun want my precious pimple nose to be gone....... hHAhaHHAhAhAhAhHAhahAhAhah.. especially tat pimple.. ;b so now i am gonna strive hard. work towards the polythecnic and of course the course that i wanna take and then.. my entrepreneur business and then... my motor-scooter and then my well-decorated flat and then my LEXUS car (i want no other car but lexus!!!!) and then!!!! my big and still well-decorated TERRACE!!! mUHAhahAHHAhAHAHAHhahAhaha!!!! that is if i am a able to be EXTREMELY SUCCESSFUL (i emphasize on the that..!!!) career woman... if i cant... then.... i guess... id juz be the typical singaporean woman, or issit called a materialistic woman who marries a rich and clever man and gets everything...? oh well... i still prefer my aim and goal!!! EXTREMELY SUCCESSFUL career woman!!! mUAhhahHAhahAHhahahAhA.. yeah!

think i wrote too much.. so.. SPREAD LOVE PEOPLE!!! YOU WILL STAND TO GAIN!

~imlovinhim~
LyNnEtTe
9:13 PM;





After the biterness, comes the sweet..

the bitter thing is he has hurt her. the sweet thing is he still loves her. c: got to find out only within these few days. they still love me. c: i love them too.. hEhehHEhHEhehHEHhehH..
::Quote:: the only way to know life is to lose many things. ::Quote::

9:08 PM;





TO EVERYONE IN THE WORLD. THIS IS WHAT SHAKTHI SENT TO ME AFTER WHAT I WROTE BEFORE.

this is a message from FRIENDSTER.

From: SHAKTHI

Date: April 11, 2004 5:21 PM

Subject: fuck u

Message: MOTHA FUCKIN BITCH WHORE........ DUN TOK AS IF
UVE GOT E MOST FUCKIN BLIZZFUL LOVELIFE EVA.. IM
WIF ZHIAN... U GOTTA FUCKIN PROB WIF TT......
SCREW U BITCH.. I DUN GIF A FUCK.. BUT U DUN FUCK
IT UP 4 ME. YA FUCKIN LOVE LIFE IS ONE SAD
STORY... DUN FUCK IT UP FOR OTHAZ... THNKZ
BITCH.. SCREW

mUAhahAHhahahahhahAHHAhAhAhahHa... i am posting this cuz if one day i am murdered, u PEOPLE, the ones i love, will know who the fucked up bastard is. C: oh well... i should learn from jesus... love ur enemies and pray for ur prosecutors. hey... anyway, ive nv been a "motha fuckin bitch whore" before. so.. dun put words into me yah . and i have nv said i have the "most fuckin blizzful lovelife eva".. i have the blissful lovelife without the fuckin part yah.. at least i have people who loves me the right way... *winks* ure wif zhi an, why de hell should i have a problem wif it?! it is not AS IF i am one of those girls who would fall for u... URH........! and.... my lovelife sad... are u sure?! oh well... speak for urself. >:b anyway, dun fuck me, GO FUCK YOURSELF.

its like.. not only i have this kinda view. mUAhahAHhAhahhAhAHhahAHhahA.... mebbe id live in fear from now... but... oh well... i lived life greatly... and i believe there would be friends to protect me.. hehHEhehHEheheHehEH.. mUAh mUAh to everyone.. SPREAD LOVE!!!

and i repeat!!!! love your enemies and pray for prosecutors. if you only love those who loves you, what reward is there? extract from the movie 'passion of the christ' . it is a good show. jesus is great. but id still be a buddhist.. ;b

anyway zhi an, u think urself la... i dun wanna say anything.. itd be useless... and for shakthi... even thou i asked zhi an to leave u, LIKE SHE WILL LIKE TAT. think for urself la...

why is everyone so fucked up?!

~MY world is filled with happy thoughts~
LyNnEtTe dA abSoluTe fLaUtiSt C;
8:44 PM;





She...

she has changed through the years.. from a demure girl with pure personality to a extremely unbelievable her.. what is wrong? cant this just get into her brain?! HE IS NOT WORTH IT. he can really beat me up for all i care.. he has changed her so much.. i cant believe what i heard when they said she smoked and drank.. what must we do to stop her from doing all these? how many hundred million times must i say to stop holding on? how many hundred million times will she cry before she decides to let go? how many hundred million times must he hurt her before she knows he is not worth it? it is all in the brain and heart! she keep thinking of him, messaging him, GOING OUT WITH HIM... i mean, how can she ever forget him? what must we do to stop her from becoming like this? now she mix with all the bad companies which i got to know she backstabbed us when they talk about us.. she is becoming so two-headed.. i wonder if we really are her good friends. i cant deny i am also a bad friend who creates trouble in skewl (michelle and mabellyn thing. thank god it is over. actually their not that bad la. it is all in the brain.. :b) but at least we asked you to concentrate on your work. but you wouldnt listen. why is this happening? she can be a best friend infront of us and can be a bitch in a matter of seconds behind us, backstabbing us. she doesnt even defend us when they say we are a bitch. my oh my.. what is happening to this gentle lady whom we always loved? i hope YOU get to read this and think about it. we are doing this for your own good. we love you adn that's why we go through so much to help you.. but you just turn on deaf ears.. hope you would really change after reading my this particular entry for you.. i would still persist that.. he is NOT WORTH you brooding and dreaming about...

okies... pple... i have got my phone... as in.. new phone... NUMBER IS STILL THE SAME.. so pple.. please gimme ur numbers!!!! either put ur number in my comment box or... send business card... mUAhahhAhhahahhahahhAHhahA.. :b kk..!? for those who doesnt know my number... here goes.. 9 7 9 7 9 8 4 0 !!!! PLEASE SEND ME UR BUSINESS CARDS K?!?!?

and VICTORIA LIEW!!!! i heard from marcus tt u wanna gimme the phone if u win the phone from ur class lucky draw rwite...?! SOOOOOOOooooOOOoooOOOOoo SWEET!!! THANKS DEARIE!!! mUAh mUah!!! LOVE YA LOADS!!!! but.. i already have a phone.. but I PRAY AND HOPE YOU WILL WIN IT!!!!! then keep for urself la!!!! kk?!?!?! god bless u darlin!!!
11:02 AM;