went east coast park at around 5.30pm. MAGNIFICENT. distance skated from macs to fort road and back to macs with sheena. it's like the best thing to do ever! i love skating. it's MY ultimate. even after sheena left, i continued skating. (x until 1.30am. well, that's because my parents worked till that late in their shop so well, waited for them so that we could go home together. 8 hours non-stop skating. woot~ learnt some basic foundation from this random man who was also skating. learnt a lot. that's because he IS an instructor. omg. freaky. he said i was lucky to have him teach me all the foundations for free. yes, i'm honoured and he's highly appreciated. would like to see such a nice man again. well, the same one of course. *coughs (darn it, i'm having a bad cough after i came back from thailand)* shucks. met 4 new friends!!! whee~ sweet. my friend meng li who was a certified skate coach came along and well, hung around and talked. then another friend of his came, named lucus, also a certified skate coach started to skate with him. so they skated at the skating ring. each time the passed me their skates go 'swoosh swoosh swoosh swoosh swoosh'. then *wind blows my hair and flies all over my face* that kinda stuff. they skate like what? 40km/h?! lols. i don't know but it's like super fast. sighs. i'm gonna be like them one day! my shifu says i have the potentila to become a good skater. maybe say in... 2 years time? whee. that's a short time really. then another group of 3 came. meng li's friends too. they're as good too. minug hui, ming dun and david. sweet. 4 new friends known in a day. I ADVISE PEOPLE TO LEARN SKATING!!! it's the best thing ever. you can swim and drown yourself. run and break your legs. skip and whip yourself. but skating? hahaha. you... fall and get 2 sand scratches. WOAHAHAHAHAHA. well, it happened to me today. i tripped. crap. oh whatever! plastered it already.

do what you do best and do what you have fun doing. there's nothing that can stop you really. parents nag too much. there's a limit and you know where yours would be. so i guess, if you like to do something, go on with it. yes, FOLLOW YOUR HEART, don't let your brain rule. cuz you know what? maybe if you din have a brain, people would call you stupid. retarded. down syndromatic. but if you din have a heart, no, you won't be heartless but you'd be dead. the heart is the most vital part of your body. sheena's right. she followed her heart and she din lose anything. in fact, she won. there are just some things that the brain doesn't see and the heart does. people should understand what i'm driving at, i think. my post is a lil to randomly abstract to comprehend. :/ hahaha. oh wells.
live like no other. love like no one does. feel the beat and touch your inner soul. understand what you want and go on with it! (drink MILO! LOLS. i kinda felt that suited the ending. (x mental, i know. i'm nuts.)
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eeks! finally back from thailand! woot~ well, bangkok and pattaya is SOOOO much better than chiang mai. DEFINITELY. i enjoyed my stay in thailand. the trip was awesome!! had loads of fun. except something was missing. SHEENA! ): sighs. the whole trip would be so much more fun if sheena was there. i love coral island. it was to the core! banana boat, the parachute thingy, the braids on my hair.. THE CORALS! woo.. too much to handle. i like nong nooch village too. not like any of you would know where it is but.. yea, they have a small zoo, they perform thai cultural dances and elephant shows. the elephants are darned well-trained i must say. such clever creatures. tsk tsk. oh! and the leopard trainer. (x he was sooooooo cute. it's a plus point that he hugged his leopard and treats his leopard well. the leopard's fur was so soft i'd like to keep it. sweet. it's good that i'm back alive. after sitting those hanging roller coaster that sounded like it was breaking apart, the viking (it swings till it becomes perpendicular to the ground k!) which i cannot take the butterflies in my stomach, the food (i'm not as strong as thais) and the chaos? hahaha, i din see any chaos at all. PHEW. i am alive! thank me lynn's alive. HAHAHA. (: love ya all sweets. take care!
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oh my visual communications ahhh.. (x my valentine? Hardie Sheena Ann. haha. maybe roy? HAH! never thought of it as a valentine's day anyway. watched walk the line. it's complicating, the way they speak with the very strong country accent. liked the show a lot since i watched it with sheena. haha. xb



wait, what do people know of valentine's anyway? do they know that valentine died for those lovers in love? though he knows that those lovers weren't supposed to be in love and he helped them. hence, causing him his life? does anyone even know how valentine came about and why we actually do celebrate valentine's day? it was to commemorate valentine's heartiness in helping those lovers even though he had no lover. he wasn't jealous. i suppose if everyone were like him, it'd be really nice.




but i think, the world would be a happier place if everyone was gay. i made it up. i thought it was cool. (x it rocks to me, at least.




i love my family. they rock a gazillion times more than yours. they are so supportive. can't take it. even though my results are plain crap. my 2nd sis helped me with my application testimonial, my eldest sis consoled me and actually said it wasn't bad. and my mom bought a burger for me. to eat NOW. at this time. hahaha. how nice. i love them. heaps. okay, my dad just brought me the burger. HAHAHA. lols. i'm such a failure. i don't know why they're so nice to me. eeks. i'm quite mean sometimes. yikes. i think i need to be a better person. they've seeked the angel in me! (x
love my family!



and i LOVE YOUUUUUUUU!!! my readers! (: whoever you may be. happy belated valentine's day.
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yes, results-receiving will be in 14 hours time. it's right smack in my face. the last time i was panicking was when i was counting "3 days to o level results". guess now it's the last you'll hear from me. MAYBE. i don't know. it's scary to anticipate and all. well, but i'm gonna make myself anticipate and let my fear overtake me. (x whatever my results will be, i will take it in my stride. but of course i hope for the best. not only to me but for my whole class that is. we shall take the word "GLORY" with us and beat the last best batch. or at least beat the last batch. :/ i'm freaked out. i have a knife in my pocket. i'm so ready to lay my life down. BUT i hope i don't need to go through all that i've thought of doing. but go through what i've set my mind to do. :/ i'm having the pre-result-receiving jitters. HELP ME. let me not die on myself. i want to live to see well, my grand daughters and sons. sighs. i'm getting off. i am talking too much.
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CAT! i never knew you'd want to be in visual comm. RAHH. you know you're like a strong competitor?!?! why would i bring you along to seek my own doom? GO TO JC la. hahaha. :b you can. but it'd be NICE if we can get into VSC together. ((x but i have the feeling you'd get in with marc and i'd have to take another course. it always happens to me doesn't it? just like i chose D&T but got into F&N. things really DON'T go the way i want it to. i've admitted the fate i'm in. and result-receiving is drawing near. 10th of feb. 10th of feb. *moans. I DON'T WANT TO LOSE MY LIFE SO SOON... i always do silly things and i know it. HAHAHA. l1r4 11 points would be sufficient for me. *prays and crosses fingers.



english - A2?
math - A2
science - A2?
chinese - B3?
F&N - A2?
POA - C5?
humanities - C6! AHAHAHA. madness.
this is how i want it to be! )x it's impossible. RAHH. how saddening. this can never be acheived. i'm not like eugene neither am i like weijian nor timothy. AHHHHH. i think i'll just jump down from the school hall and end my legs. YES, end my LEGS. sighs. my brains are fried. i'm hanging on a thread. i'm like this (-) close to going mad. as in those real madness where you lose your mind cuz you had a big impact in your life. i'm so pressured. i don't want to get into ite. ))x no way i'm going to ite. i've had enough of lagging. i'm alr 1 year behind those year 88s. ARGH. my brains are fried black.
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i cant link the temasekwindensemble's blog! holy macaroni.
i'm trying very desperately k. and it's not working because according to the computer, "there were errors". madness. that's why i never liked to learn about computers. they are MAD. eurgh.
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?
this is bad. things don't seem to go the way i want it to.
it's ominous. results will be coming out in 8 days.
THAT IS A WEEK. freak. this is so bloody nerve-wrecking.
i'm breaking out in cold sweat as i'm typing this. i don't know how i'll do and i won't know where i've gone wrong. papers won't be returned. why shouldn't they? unreasonable really.
i'm working. yes, WORKING on my portfolio. it has yet to be finished.
i'm finished if i don't finish it. sucks.



i'm frightened of what's being put infront of me.
i don't want to see the eyes that stare.
i don't want to hear the voice that chide.
i don't want to speak the words that hurt.
i'm afraid of what's gonna happen to me.
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