Urk hums...

the title of my blog is lame.. but cant find anything interesting to link it with dogs you see.. so.. the only word i can think of is BITCH. and yes... humphers.. mUHAhahHAhahHAhahHahah.. *winks* gosh.. cant believe my sister actually read my blog! kewl. i even have her comment. mUAHahHAHhahHahAHhAhHAHA.. there is simply nothing i can hide from her.. the break-up, the lost of my phone.. man.. she knows me too well.. argh.. after the childhood days of squeezing her breasts and now, she squeezing mine... uRgh*sighs* huRts.. haven bathed anyway.. to be truthful..
In Band: played this piece called 'Mozart!'. man.. it was more than juz tough. GoSh. 8 semi-hemi-demi quavers(or wadeva it is..)..?!?! u expect me to play that?! GO ON! DREAM ON! i could try.. but sight reading today.. heLLo..?! stupid BI-sexual complained about the tutti-flutties.. we not emotional enough? mUah hA ha Ha ha. *laughssacarstically* maybe for them.. not for me.. and timmy boy.. :b
Yesterday:went to this chinese restaurant. it was my mum's birthday.. 5 pple ate this 8 persons meal.. isnt that like 'wow!'?! the price was jaw dropping too. 288 bucks for tt.. like.. 'WOW!!!'.. cool eh.. juz as long as my mum and dad enjoyed it.. the money spent is all worth while. (yes i paid some. one tenth of it.. mUhahahHAhHAhAHhaha.. :b) when we was on our home, my sis and her boyfren was in a car, i, my dad and mum was in a car.
my dad said "u wanna follow nicole home? i bring ur mummy go elsewhere"
i replied "huh?! where are u all planning to go?"
dad replied "i wanna bring ur mummy go beach.."

LIKE AwwWwwWw... sho sweet! my parents and me were laughing like mad cows.. joking about wat will my dad do to my mum.. mUAHahHHahhAHhahhahHahah.. :b

if only love would last for an eternity. free from arguements but disputes here and there.

i love my family, classmates/bandits (all those who truly loves me back!), MOST of my schoolmates and outside skewl friends too..
I LOVE YA PEOPLE. YOU ARE THE ONES WHO MAKE MY LIFE ROCK!
mUah MuAh*blowskisses*giveseachneveryoneabigcuddlysnuglyhug* u were the ones who made a difference. C;

Unforgettable-Nat King Cole

Unfogettable, that's what you are
Unforgettable, though near or far
Like a song of love that clings to me
How the thought of you does things to me
Never before has someone been more

Unforgettable in every way
And forever more, that's how you'll stay
That's why darlin, it's incredible
That someone so unforgettable
Thinks that i am unfogettable too...


my sister says:
Men. they always make every start of the relationship to be so perfect, then as time goes by, only to let us learn it's not to be. men are dangerous. but reckless as it is, we still fall in love dun we?

so very very true. men. :b hUmphS* heart breakers, sweet talkers, big liars. i mean most of them are like that. NOT ALL.

signed out
LYnNetTe*digsnose,burps,fartsandspitsonthefloor.*
10:34 PM;





unforgetable..

Ive come to this state where nothing is gain, and nothing is lost.
Is that a good or bad?
This meant to be a oh-so-wonderful thing turned out likewise.
What else can I say?
You did not know it ended so sudden and silent,
Then why did you answer me through silly nicks?
You said YOU MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE?
Isnt it supposed to be me making the oh-so-correct choice?
I thought it could be regained,
But it seems that it cant, since nobody's willing to do the sacrifice.
I dont want any other person to come and do it because i only want YOU(thebeastlything).
Lets start avoiding and all.

eh... supposed to put in the TWE photos.. but... i cant do it.. mUAhahhHahHAhhahHahhha... like as u peeps know.. i am kinda stupid in this kinda stuffs... sorry yah... so... mUAhahHahHHHahHAhahahhhaA...

::: !!!VERY VERY VERY EXTREMELY VERY IMPORTANT UPDATE!!! :::
I HAVE UNFORTUNATELY LOST MY PHONE!!!! BwaH WaH wAh waH WaH!!!!!!!!!!!!*CRIESOUTLOUD*

anyone care to buy one phone for me..?!?!?! as in chip in like 10 bucks for my phone?! hUmpH* i should kill myself. this is the 5th time i lost my phone. eh.. no! i lost my phone twice only.. the other 3 times is people steal one. WHY?!?!?!?! why is heaven playing such tricks on me!?!?!? i have learnt my lesson!!! can u bring this day in where i find a 6220 on the bus?!?!?! PLEASE...!!!! *talkstothegod* (eRm... -_-lll) kinda impossible for me to find a phone la... hAIz*sighs* i dont exactly need a phone to live.. I NEED MY PHONE TO LIVE ON!!! *singsout 'im a big big girl in a big big world its not a big big thing if you leave me but i do do will like i do do should miss you much..'* bWah WaH wAh wAH WaH!!!!!*CRIESOUTLOUD* the song is to both YOU and MY PHONE! hAiZ*sighs* so sad.
remember this day: 9th of march. i said it ended.
remember this day: 18th of march. i lost my beautiful phone.
remember this day: 20th of march. you said you made the right choice. :b humPh*

life is MISERABLE!!! mUAHhahhHhahhAhhaAhhahhahahH..!~ rwite.. i will still live on no matter what! i will rAwK oN!~

~itsme,the"beauty"~
lYnNeTtE
12:07 AM;





JUST FOR THIS ONE DAY?

read the blog right after receiving the msg.

ok. so is it just this day who ruined it all? so all the good times were insignificant and easily forgotten while this day today is the worse and most memorable? hah*

if i was really that angry, i wouldnt have even talked the whole day. for a mere stare and 'blink'(the bad way. in hokkien, diao) of the eye. i am petty. i could have reacted worse if i was still sec 2 or maybe 3. maybe i would have gave u a slap on the face and all.

and for that mere "maybe it was you who farted." sentence, you get angry with me? it may be very crude but that's me. friends are supposed to like each other even for their bad side of them unless it is really serious like badmouthing each other and all. and because i wanted to quit the chinese story-telling competition, i gave you a stupid excuse and all.. you got angry, AGAIN. is these minor things that in life seems major and major things in life like telling someone "i hate her." when you get angry minor? then i think it is really funny.

i take you people for granted? are you sure? if i did, yes again, i wouldnt have talked to you the whole day and think that you are a bitch or fucked up shit. in fact, i did not. i did my own self-thinking. if it was really me or what. i have decided to change. crying crying crying* if you all dont like it then i dont know what to do. if i am all quiet. that is the new me. breathe* i am not going to be the lynn who makes stupid faces and say COLD jokes and be the clown anymore. i will just be a girl. the gentle girl who sits properly, always wear a 3/4 long skirt. not anymore will i be the cross-legged seated, loud spoken, bitchy, even more fun than a barrel of monkies seen in me.
and yah, if i took you people for granted, i wouldnt have even thought of buying that last pack of biscuit on the shelf which was cheap and all. but still i thought that you people liked that pack of biscuits and so, my mum bought it for me since i wanted it.
"if i didnt think of you(whichever one of you..)i would have bought like.. sanitary pads for myself or some shit lor."

think about it. i wont be wrong about this. i may not be the best at making peace, but i am sure i am good of telling which are my friends, which are not.

~maybe one day i'll be myself, but i wont forget this day when you gurls made me so disppointed in you and myself.~
LyNn
1:17 AM;





what's wrong with me?

thinking of the need to change myself for the better. shant be the mental me no more. should just be the normal, typical average girl. should be reserved. should be studious. should go home straight away after the school activity ends. should be.. yah.. the typical good girl. hahaha.* shant love no more, hate no more. shant go into too deep a relationship. shant have too good a friendship(do i even have true friendship?). turn everything into stone. love, hatred, friends, enemies.. and of course me. wannabe feelingless. no thoughts, no dreams, no feelings for anything or anyone.

they say ivechanged. changed? more cocky? more bitchy? more stucked-up? more petty? so i think she should change the negative to neutral. i dont want to be the me who goes around saying i love you dearie. i now want to be the hidden character. where nobody knows whom i am with, who my true friends are(do i even have any?), who am i. she wants to be the lonely soul. where nobody cares for me. they leave me to hell. where gates are widely open. need no consoles (would i even have any?), no pats on the back, no need for close friends to tell me anything(do they even treat me as one of them?). lalalalalalala.

three days before, i just wrote this on my homework diary "ilovemylife.iamneitherpoornorrich.liferocks. ihavegoodfriends,ihaveahappyfamily,iamnotthatugly." come to think of it, all of it is untrue. except for the family part. and yeah, twe used to rock. until.. arGh* and, what's past cannot be present. that three days ago WAS the past. and now is the present, where they say it is the gift, but i dont think its a pleasant one. tell me what you think of me. give me a bad comment. hahahah.*

arGh* people say they hate hypocrites. but they did not realise this, they themselves, is one too. are you sure, when you quarell, you dont go to another friend and tell him/her "i hate her. she's a bitch. blahblarhblah..)" ? i believe YOU did. i admit i did. that is why i dont say i hate hypocrites. i dont hate hypocrites. but i hate me. hahaha.* :b

crying crying crying* change change change. and people, if i dun ever talk to you again, that does not mean anything. i just wanna change myself from a used to be princess (only some pple take me as that. while my bestest best frens ask me to fuck off.) to a miserable piece of shit. a freak, a nerd, not funny, not friendly, unknown piece of living shit. though my sister told me stop wallowing in self pity. hahahahah* i thank her for that. and for those who say i suck, i thank YOU for that too. i did not know i was such a bitch, a arrogant fucked up 'princess', an overall not-perfect-at-all girl.

nobody would realise the lynn in her is gone.. so i guess.. doesnt make a difference if i change myself.
~notmiserable.justtryingnottobemeanymore.~
fu xuan lin (think i should change my e-mail address)
8:20 PM;