i have never cried so hard before in my 15 plus years of life. i dunno what's wrong with me but i really hate crying. i cant breathe. mUAHhahHahAHahhAhAHa... ok, for now, thats it. i have nothing to say.

~fuckedup~
lynnfu
8:04 PM;





just look at yourself

i hate to have scolded u like tt, i hate to have make names outta wat u did but u left me wif no where to run and really, u got hot on my nerves. money can fly and run eh? u took it without MY permission. isnt tt stealing?! if i din notice my money missing, u would'nt have told me either yeah?! u say ur-best-fren steals ur money too. and u consider her as a best fren? hAHhahAHAh.. is tt wat a best fren is!? to steal ur money and wat?.. smoke wif u all the time?! if tt is wat a best fren is, i really have no best frens at all. mUaHahHAHhhAhahHAHaAhaH.. *laughs sacarstically* idiot. i really din wanna pick a fight. but u started it. oh well.. i wasnt in the wrong. look at wat has become of u. leave the past behind and move on will ye?! he left u crippled. but u can choose not to be. u're juz draggin and brooding over the past. by smoking, ur anger and pains is still there, it wont solve anything! i believe it aint bcuz u think it looks 'cool', tat's why ure smoking. it is bcuz u r so influenced by ur frens. and now, ure doing it more than often cuz u think life is crippled. tt time u ALMOST got banged down by a car. u said "i dun wanna die yet. i am still so young.". and by smoking, ure juz waiting for king of hades to open the hell gates for u. isnt tt so?! i believe i am wiser than u r NOW. for NOW only. u're juz being a bitch. u said i never ask permission to enter ur room?! is tt necessary? so if next time u're out, do i have to sign a log-in book?! tt is so not reasonable. uRgH! pissed and disappointed. -am malify si ginmobec ropo.-

what started the fight was a let-me-play-gunbound-for-a-while-more sentence.

aRgh. i need to pass up the darn f&n project by tuesday. and it is like.. monday tmr?! totally passing out cuz of the project. *fainTs* oh well.. good luck to the peepees taking their o's! all da best! to u and ME.. mUAHhaHAHhahAHahAhHAHA!! *smiles* =]


whatever i do is for me and you.
whatever i say is just for you.
whatever happens i will still love you.
it just so happens i am higly infatuated with you.
should i or should i not? two stories to tell, cinderella or snow white?



~pissed, trying to calm down~
lYnN fU .::blackgothvoodoodoll::. o%olivin in a world of euphoria, dementia and utopia.o%o

11:21 PM;





oh daRn..

somebody help me with my beautiful photo..!!! :c so sad! i dun know how the hell the image can.... become... some CRAP SHIT like this... aRgh.. so sad so sad so sad. so bear wif the crap shit now... i'll get it fix.. WHEN VINCENT COMES BACK K?!?!?! hee.. :b take cares peeple!

~idiosyncrasyisme.hot~
lYnN fU .::blackgothvoodoodoll::. livin in a world of euphoria dementia n utopia.
8:57 PM;





i dun dislike her anymore. in fact.. i like her ALOT NOW! she is.. like.. 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000(not intending to end the zeroes but la8er pple get annoyed..)times prettier than me.. but.. she has a.. character like me.. "WEDGIE!!!!" *pullsundieslikenobody'sbusiness* now i dun get why she doesnt want a boyfren.. or i mean.. dun intend to get one.. she is so.. kewl. hahHAhHAHHahHhahAhHa.. i admire her (if u dun know who she is, she is a saxaphonist.)and baby fu too!!! MY OW XIANG!!! *drools* sings out: "who lives in a pineapple unda da sea? SPONGEBOB squarepants!"hAHhahhahhahAHahhAhhahAHHA.. ok.. *drools* lynn here is going a lil demented juz by talking bout my 2 realistic idols.*stilldrooling* not like those.. "i wanna be like fann wong.." kinda stuff.. GO TO HELL! hHAHhhahahhAhhahahHAhahAHhaHahahhahHAH.. my 2 idol!!! V.N and B.F(<-no wonder she has so
many boy frens after her!)-seespuddleunderherfeet- *stilldrooling* heh heh heh.. :b rAwk oN!u girls make the female gender proud!!! yAaYx.. not like some FAKERS hor zhian!!! :b down wif FAKERS!


**IDIOSYNCRASY RULES OVER MA WORLD!**
11:24 PM;





COPYCATS.

why cant these bitches get their ass of the same-things-as-us kinda stuff..?! maybe she got the blogskin way before i did.. but well.. who gives a damn. since mine is modified.. with MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH help from vincent. and. this DARNED blog keeps setting itself back to default.. tt is why some of u dun get to see the B.E.Autiful picture i have put behind this post.. argh.. tt girl is wonderfully goregeous. like muntaz. mUAHhahAHhAhHAhAhHAHA.. :b heh.. if u're reading this!!! TAZ!!! stop saying i am gorgeous... cuz u are the one who is DROP-DEAD gorgeous~! lLAlallAlallAAl.. sings out: "i dont wanna know.. if u're playing me.. keep it on the low.. and my heart cant, take it anymore.. lalAlaLalaLa.."

today.. was a.. great day!!! went back to band.. then.. gene said my tone improved.. nelson said my tone improved.. heh heh.. :b yaay! woo hoo!!! goes to show.. practise makes.. IMPROVEMENTS. i'd say. :b but!!! dun flatter me too much! i might become swell-headed!!! then.. i wont practise anymore! give me some.. criticisms k?!?! yeah yeah!!! be a critic. :b point out MY FAULTS. like what tim does! but dun make it sound too callous.. k?! *grins* :D it makes me aim for perfection. then.. i'd be one step ahead to perfection! yaay! to the syf standard of perfection.. NOT THOSE.. professional musicians one. i'd nv make it to be as good as them. maybe if i had 200 years to live.. then maybe.. c: *smiles*

-boing boing boing_bounces away-
good night darlings! love ya all! visit my blog more often! hEHhehehHeHhEHEHhH.. :b

~iamlivinginaworldofeuphoriadementiaandutopia.iamidiosyncraticandlovestobeacritic~
lYnN fU "YOU! look like shit. is that in style now?" .::blackgothvoodoodoll::.
10:51 PM;





The passion..

As I stood outside the doors.I tried to prepare myself for what I was about to see.
But when I entered the room, I had no idea that my life would be changed so drastically.
I sat there in silence, as all did.
The room was filled with the flickeringlight of the screen.
As I cried, only a little bit, too shocked to move.I felt like my heart was broken inside me.I wanted to cry , but felt it hard to breathe. I watched in silence.
As this man demonstrated what Jesus did for me.
It broke my heart and tears began to flow. I felt helpless and I wanted to make them stop.
The pain I felt was like nothing I've ever felt before.Then I began to cry out to God.
I realized at that moment if He had not done this for me.
This love that I feel for Him now would have never come to be.
He laid in the temple yard beaten. His face disfigured from the punches and blows.
The robe he wore was covered in blood as red as a rose.
With every ounce of His strength He pulled himself to His feet.
Only to be knocked down again.But all that He did was for me , what greater love shown by a friend?When they lead Him away , His body was weaken by the pain.
The Roman soldiers had no pity on Him and began to beat Him again.
They slapped Him in the face and knocked Him to the ground.
No idea that this was all for them as well.
That this man would one day rise up and reign over all man and save many from Hell.
As He carried the cross on His back to the place where He would soon die.
You could hear people weeping all over the room.
As many in the crowd cried.We all knew what was next and it made it hard to bare.
All our eyes fixed on the screen.All you could hear was the sobbing cries of the weeping.
The sounds of those mourning in despair.
The actor laid on the cross as they drove the nails in his hands and in his feet.
But I could see only Jesus there giving His life for me.
The movie became real, the pain was real, the tears ,and the blood.
And then it was like God spoke to me and said" There is no greater love. My son did this for you. He laid his life down so you wouldn't have too.He traded his crown in Heaven for a crown of thorns and a beating you would never indure."
I knew at that moment that this had to be.Even though it seemed so unfair.
But the greatest thing happened! God caused my eyes to open and see. The crucifixion became clear.I could truly see what really happened. No greater love was shown to me.
Than the day Christ was nailed to the tree.

^jesus rocks!^

today went swimming wif wendy.. muAhAHhAhahHAhahAhAH.. i tried to drown myself. fun sia.. SO MANY CUTE SWIMMERS. so small yet so much potential to swim like.. THAT FAST. i swim half lap they swim 1 and a half lap.. like.. WOW. *OUCH* leg numb.. hurts.. oOo. aH..

-ihateyou.ulied.liarliarpantsonBIGfire.-
i thot. and i wished. but it nv was real. it wouldnt be back.
for what is lost can never be regained. u've got me crushed. u've made me blind.
u entered my soul. u're under my skin. i hurt when u crawl. it hurts me alot.
i dont know why. how u actually made it.
u made me fall, with no intentions of catching me. i nv forget, those moments of joy.
all was over. but i thought about it again.
i did the right thang. but all these are insuperable.
but all i want to say to u now is i hate you. alot. u lied. u are a big fat liar.
-nowihateumorethananybodyelse.u'renotmyenemy.butisimplyhateyou-

isnt simplicity the greatest thing in life? *smiles*

i just sneezed.. and.. now my mucus is on my table.. and my dictionary. how gross can that be? very. hAHhahHAhhahhahAhAHhA. EeEEEeewWWWww.. *usestissuetopulltheslimefromthetable*

~reminiscingthepast.comewhatmayforwhateversfuture.letitbeforwhateverspastandover.~
lYnN fU .::.blackgothvoodoodoll.::.









10:54 PM;





sings out "hello hello hello hello hello hello how r u..?!".. like the unicorn babies..
oOoOoOo.. cute! *pinchesbutt* heh..
and so.. friday is an update-ur-blog daEeEe!~ so if u haven update ur blog for years, do it nowWwW!! heh heh.. *winKs*
my computer is down wif loads of stupid viruses. and guess what? when i opened up the internet searcher thang, there were plenty of pop-ups(as usual) but something really disguisting popped-up to my horror! there was this 2.. photos of peeple having sex. it was those kinda movable icon thang.. so the thing was like moving moving.. like really watching peeple having sex can?! i saw the thing moving, dun wanna develope sore eyes and all.. so i saw this girl naked.. i knew it, somethign porn. then moving moving then i faster CLICK CANCEL. what do u think?! u think i would look at it more precisely to give u more details on it?! yUck.
-stilllovinu,andeverybodyelse-
*farts* oh.. stinkoo winko..
yay! band will be starting next tuesday! hopes everybody sounds better than usual!!! wanna play our choice piece asap. so can practice it to be PURRFECT! both technically and musically to be great. hu-hu-hu-hoOo!!! -boing,boing,boing bouncesaroundliketigger-
i pity peeple who needs to beg for testimonials. they juz dun get it. peeple find tt they r not good enuff to have one. so, why beg? this is specially for MARIE. pathetic lil shit. liar. look at ye? you r just a pathetic bird shit stuck onto the canteen table and no bird claims tat YOU r his/her shit. makes no sense but oh well. MARIE FROM SAINT ANTHONYS CANOSSIAN, YOU SUCK.
anyways, i have nothing in mind to write now.. so shall be back the next time! please log onto lynnfu.blogspot.com! thank you and good bye!
7:43 PM;





narcissistic is MY word, and so is idiosyncrasy.

mUaHAhahAhHahahahahhAaA... kept using this two words in my "girls' lil black book".. but nv used it here.. intersting words.. really love it.. it is.. so me can?! heh heh.. and peeple, pls take note, dun use the words when i am in favour wif it. I WILL BITE YOUR HEAD OFF, AND BURP AND FART RIGHT INTO YOUR FACE. and for the previous entry, i am speaking for the girls'. it is true. >:b

"for every two people, there are each person's good and bad. there is no way you can compare how good they actually are.. cuz they are good in different ways." one is romantic and mushy, and that is how he makes u feel happy. another is comfortable to be wif, and that is how the other maks u feel happy.. u'd be in a crux, deciding who to choose eh?! i am idiosyncratic.. therefore.. i follow the one who makes me comfortable. C: so.. uh.. i'll be back!!! i hope so.

and wassup wif cat, sheena and zhian suspecting peeple liking me.. eH.. -_-ll heh heh.. like.. him.. and him.. and him... and he likes me... and he likes me.. and he likes me.. muHAhahAHhAhAhhahahAhhahAhA.. rwite.. not true can?!? i love my class.. though some peeple can be irritaing at times.. all those.. super talkative and yakkady-yakky ones.. heh heh.. hint hint~ watched dawn of the dead yesterday.. in the avt wif mdm sharifah.. and yes.. my whole class.. the girls were screaming away while SOME guys were squeaming away.. it was really gruesome.. but.. it was a good show.. without any story base la.. mUAHahHAhahAHhHAhHahaaha.. grotesque killing... tsk tsk tsk.. some more they flashed the breast and nipple.. I DIN NOTICE THERE WAS A SCENE OF THAT.. sheena tell me one.. i only saw the girl.. horny.. wearing g-string.. mUAHahHAhAHhAhahaHAhahHAha.. :b people who like to watch thrillers.. and loves gore.. u can watch this show.. heh.. sadistic.

FÛck Wat I Say It Dun Mean Shit Now-FÛck The Presents Might As Well Throw Em Out-FÛck All Those Kisses They Didn't Mean Jack-FÛck You,You Hoe I Dun Wan U Back-
[u hate me. fine. *jumpsoutofthewindow* ~poof~ *bloodsplashesonthefloor* -hehehe,hahaha.iamobnoxious-]
some great nicks or wat? heh heh..

i am trying real hard to improve on my english.. so any BIG words muz intro to me k?!?! mAHUahHAhhAhAhhAhahHAhahhhAa.. grandiloquent=using pompous words.. tt is wat i wanna do to improve on my vocab.. mUAahAHhahahHAhahhAhahAh...

~iamnarcissisticandidiosyncratic.anyproblemwifthat?~
lYnN fU .::. blackgothvoodoodoll-curseyou.::. o%o-livin in a world of euphoria,dementia and utopiao-%o


10:56 PM;





god created men to give women a taste of what hell is like. i agree. from what i see so far. yes.

suffering sleepless nights of crying and disappointment. dont know what's wrong. but it seems really miserable. hope you'll get over it soon... but it seems like... it'll need a long time to heal the wound cut deep in the heart.

happy moments dont last long. but you've got to know, you once enjoyed it.

maybe my feelings for you are no longer the same, i just want you to know, i loved you once.
we'll always be together forever, as bestest best friends. c:

live your life to the fullest because you wont know when it will end. would you be glad for what you have and stay happy or would you moan everyday about whats so-called-sad and stay miserable? think wisely. i would choose to be happy and let everyone know that they are all very appreciated by me! mUah muAh muaH*

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY TO ALL THE MOTHERS' IN DA WORLD! WOMEN RAWK!
without you, there wouldnt be the me i am today.

~lovingyou,andeverybodyelse~
lyNn fU .::.blackgothvoodoodoll.::. o%olivin in a world of euphoria,dementia and utopia.o%o
8:02 PM;





like ouch...

i had my food and nutrition exam today. i was so nervous. juz couldnt stop my heart from beating. miss lim said all my stuffs was quite tasty. i emphasize on the QUITE arh.. not very.. it is quite tasty. and yeah.. when i was doing the vegetable cutlet... i accidently dipped my 2 fingers into the hot boiling oil. like ouch. tat hurts a whole lot. it has swelled.. and i guess.. id be having a BG blister on my 2 fingers... :.c so sad!

like.. 1,2,3,4 HI 5!

for wadeva crap shit this is, this is definitely the silliest web name i have ever gone through. -__-ll and it keeps loggin off for no reason?! arGh* its irritating.. wadeva la.. boring!
8:25 PM;