♥ Saturday, January 29, 2005
wee~ life has been great. hahaha~ new year's nearing and i haven done spring cleaning. RARRGH. heh heh.. "YAAY" have to do it tmr. hohoho~ my room has been a mess since.. erm.. LAST chinese new year. muahahahaha~ i'm an extremely messy person. totally cant tell right? wahahahaha~ everyday is passing by so fast. bah. i can't even take time to do my stupid social studies newspaper report. HAHAHA~ hey, it's like i'm the social studies representative.. why? ALL THANKS TO SHEENA AND MOKHSEIN.
mdmsharifa "so who will be the ss rep?"
mok "LYNN AH LYNN."
sheena "CHER CHER, LYNNlynnLYNNlynnlynnLYNNlynnlynn(non-stop)"
moknsheena "cher, LYNN BE SS REP"
mdmsharifa "ok, LYNN will be our ss rep. that it shall be."
me "WHAT?!?!?(i was distracted by other stuffs,wasnt listening..) what did she say mok? i be what?"
mok "you the ss rep"
me "WHAT THE HELL?! CHER CHER, MY SOCIAL STUDIES SUCKS!!!"
mdmsharifa "yes, precisely. that's why you have to be ss rep to be their role model"
me "G R E A T. thanks ah sheena and mok.(pissed)"
crap. that's how it all happened. so I/ME yes, I have to strive hard to be a good ss rep. R I G H T . dream onnnnn... my humanities suck.. and it will... FOREVER. or so i think. =] muahahahahah~ i trying to be GOOD in ALL subjects. i'll try get A2 for ALL subjects. nono, 6 subjects enough. hahaha~ HOPEFULLY. then i'd be HALF as good as eugene. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~ do you think i can make it? hahaha~ well well.. let's see in time to come. *shall i go brisbane with the present twe? i'm having financial problems.. besides.. the people whom i wanna go with ain't in twe anymore. they've.. all moved to other bands. :c and and and, i am not as good as any of the flautist anymore. it'll be a shame if i go there and play all the wrong notes. moreover, i will be having my o's. i needa FOCUS.*
you're my earth
you're my king
you're the only thing that could make me live on for tomorrow
awww.. that was so friggin sweet. but there's stil more, i can't remember. "i give you this ring, as a pledge of my love and the symbol of our unity." the pledge for.. proposal/marriage. 'will you take me as your wedded wife?' woo~ nono, its not that i will say that. but its so.. omg daring. =] anyway, the POP yesterday at st pat's was awesome. their school looks like those england high school. and what, that cornet solo player rocked. woo~ he played the whole school song alone from the third floor. their band rocks.. hahahaha~ well, now that he and he aint doing anything to help him, i wonder what will happen to our band in the next performances to come. since HE insisted that he shall do the job alone and independantly. HA HA HA~ i knew he'd be an arrogant irresponsible.. BLAH. that's why i told all of you to vote for either HIM or HIM. nobody bothered to listen. now all you people can do is suffer fate in the hands of his. XD woo wee~
the past, joy, fun and laughter, has all become what people call yesterday. nothing of it is gonna happen again. the present, sadness, disappointment and loneliness, is all that has happened to me today. 'today is called present that's why it is a gift.' not a gift at all. i am lost in my own world of memories, hoping that it'll revive, all this is but a dream that will never come true. even the person whom i've respected most found himself a new sweetie. and she so happens to be someone close. this jealousy and loneliness that runs through my veins caused much disappointment. i walked down the aisle alone, leaving heavy footsteps that was left unheard. the tears welled up in my eyes. 'dont cry, dont cry' i said to myself. it's pointless doing so much for them yet they never learn to appreciate it. i'll never get anything in return. never! i'm living in her shadow, now. nobody will know my presence, neither will they care about my absence. that's how insignificant i am to them.
my piece of say when i am there. only i mean all to my classmates. and maybe fang they all, no?(so 'the da vinci code') HAIZ. saddening. depressing.
you don't know what it's like to be like meeeeeee
to be hurt to feel lost to be left out in the dark
to be kicked when you're down to feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you
well you don't know what it's like...
welcome to my life.
well.. gonna go into slumberland now.
take care, sugar coated honey dreams all night.
may the sun be shining your door everyday!
9:47 PM;
♥ Tuesday, January 25, 2005
well.. i ain`t sleeping, YET, so decided to blog till my eyes feel all that droopy and all. and i realised, ALOT of people have been saying " your blog SO DRAMA CAN?! " what`s wrong? issit me? why cannot drama? FUN WHAT. bahhhhh. yaay, my english is improving. R I G H T . WOO WEE~ anyhoos, o levels are 'round the corner' and i haven`t been studying alot. WHY WHY WHY!? so irritating. rarrgh. i`ve been living life like there`s no tomorrow, or rather, tomorrow`s never gonna come.. everything`s been too fast for me to adapt to the changes. i don`t wanna grow old. i wanna live life young FOREVER.. sadly, that`s not ever gonna happen. anyhoos, the temasek wind ensemble is gonna perform on the 10th of february (yes, it IS on the second day of chinese new year), feel free to go support ME. yes,
ME only. hahahaha~ what? hey, nobody in the band really cares `bout me. i feel like bullpoo going for band, NO, it`s sectionals, sounding like crap, having INDIVIDUAL practise doing what? symphonic band techniques. LOL. how fun. i miss so much of year 2004 graduates. :c so sad. OH YA! and what the HELL is wrong with girls nowadays?!?!? "whyy ishh it tat they torrk orr type likee tiish. they thiink it ishh FREAKING cutee wor. sho KAWAII nehx." for you bullpoos who type like that, it is DARN gross, please stop the 'trend' NOW. man, am i ashamed to be of the same nationality as them! eurgh. wannabes, GO TO HELL. friggin slap yourself into reality. they take photos with their eyes GLUED to the camera lenses. how bout that? O-O if you`re not beautiful, ACCEPT THE FACT THAT YOU`RE not, LIKE ME. crapppp, can`t take it anymore. and, if -YOU- hate school (trust you to call your school SAI on friendster) so much, why even bother to come? i feel ashamed for you. i thought you WERE a sweet DECENT girl but you`ve made me think otherwise now. i`ve sung praises, but now, i take them back. i predict your future already. you don`t need education to have alot of money. you just need some old haggard but wealthy man to be with you. you`ve got the loose holes already. so pack your bags, GO HOME AND GIVE BIRTH TO BABIES(singapore needs to have an expanding population), don`t study LAH! seeing you in school is like seeing a lowclass prostitute. at least prostitutes are doing their job, it`s not like they enjoy doing so. YOU? i can`t stand girls who wear their school skirts like miniskirts. HELLO? what difference does it make if your skirt is shorter or longer? furthermore, you`ve got to have those giselle bundchen legs to do so, if not, SCRAM. and and and, like what kai siang said, "WAH!!! SKIRT SO SHORT, MIGHT AS WELL DON`T WEAR." it was meant to be sarcastic anyways. this is like never ending. there is so much difference in MY batch and those.. sec3 and below batch. act KC. - -ll FOR WHAT?! you don`t even look half as pretty as those KC girls.PUIH. AND YOU, fling fling fling~ why abuse your assets? you know you`re beautiful, you take advantage of it, play with guys, lead them on and then throw them aside. woo~ nice try. you ain`t respected by ME if you`re that kinda person. i`d still think you`re ugly even if you`re like 999999999999999999999999999 times prettier than me. XD muahahahahaha~ well, i`m still quite energetic BUT, i`d have to stop. saddening. i still have school. huifang, eugene, timothy, SOMEBODY, HELPPPPPP..!!!!! anyhoos, i need VOLUNTEER-y tutors. EUGENE... read this read this,
H E L P . i need humanities and science and food and nutrition AND chinese AND POA tutor. how `bout TUTORSSSSS? hahahaha~ practically EVERY subject. LOLS. now, i`m feeling sleepy. YAWNS*
-take care, sleep early, brush your teeth, drink your milk, bathe twice a day, study hard and love the people around you! (hahaha~ SO ZAT.) it`s me you`ve been thinking about. I KNOW! hahahahaha~ woo wee!!! i`m lovin` YOU, you, you, you AND
YOU!
<3
1:23 AM;
♥ Monday, January 10, 2005
HELLO PEOPLE. just wanna inform you that i have an extremely pathetic photo gallery which has.. LITTLE photos. dont expect much. it is under the links area..
its password is.. PASSWORD. SIMPLE YEA!!!??? so.. dont mind. i look grotesque and obnoxious in almost all the photos. so get your paper bag ready and PUKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE... =] byeeeeeeee...
1:19 AM;
♥ Friday, January 07, 2005
it's not that i don't wanna forget him. it's just that i can't. how 'bout that? everyone's been telling me "FORGET HIM LA. HE'S SUCH AN ASS." well. i'm not like a computer who erases memories just as when you like or want to. i've been trying to picture people in him.nobody achieves it. i love his eye colour, his eyes, hair colour, not-that-good dressing sense, his nose, his legs, his skating skills... practically every bit bout him. but oh well.
i won't fall in 'crush/like' or love anymore. woo~ free!!!
heh heh. anyhoos, today's cca orientation was ok. band presented themselves alright. abit lack of smartness though. BUT! the sec ones sucked. they were so rowdy. some buncha crapbull they are! its so irritating.
everyone's been so irritating. eurgh. sick and tired of always being sick and tired.
thesewords- Iloveyoutimes4. rarrgh.
every girl has been upset about the only ONE person they like. HOW COME? its weird..
11:05 PM;
