hahaha. okay. update update! first week of school.. pretty cool i'd say. i already have an assignment. (: SWEET. FIRST week. and which idiot told me first week relax only la.. no lessons and work..6 bloodygoddamnit chapters to write about 1 stupidfreakingshit model that my group of 3 invented. -.- OMGWOW. it is SO dnt. and unfortunately, i don't take DNT. argh. everythings messed up. because of secondary school. stupid 'GNAYUO'. maybe if i took art i'd be in design. and MAYBE if i took dnt, i'd be either in design or having not-so-many problems with what i learn now. and of ALLLLL things.. F&N. BLOODYCRAPHOLE. argh.




wait.. does it matter to you when you fall on your face, you get a wound and people start staring at you like you're some craphole weirdo? IT DOES TO ME. no, the wound does not matter to me OR whether or not it'll leave a scar but now that it's recovering, the skin is like.. black. people start staring at me like my whole face is a mole itself. WHAT THE.. now i plaster my wound la. it's cute to me. well, at least better than it looking like a mole. BOO. but really.. of all places why part of my face?! it's on my chin. eekyboo. how unlucky. but whatever happens to me, i'll continue skating. (: it's already my life. my mom threatened to scold the skaters if i do ever get a serious injury while skating.. BUT.. i mean.. it'll be MY FAULT if i fall right? what has it got to do with them? so i told her "it's not like they're gods who can stop me from falling down" and continued "if you do stomp into the shop and start scolding everyone, i'll stop talking to you". :/abit unfilial of me i know but.. falling down is just part and parcel of skating. and if you don't fall, you won't learn to stand up.. so ya.. I LOVE IC. the crew. every skater i know is my life! (: skating is my love. love=skating. <33 OH BTW, i must thank simon a million for lending me his skates. omg. it's so freaking pretty i can't bear to slide with it. rahh.




BAND BAND!!! YAY!!! we'll be having a band dinner! I MUST SEE ALL MY JUNIOR FLAUTISTS THERE I DON'T CARE. yes you, michelle, sandy, mayves, pei yee, florence, jessica, pinyi and fang lu, YES ALL OF YOU. AND MY DAHLING TIMOTHY! whee~ it's okay if other sections look alright and happy. all that matters is that you guys are feeling the love amongst yourselves. you don't have to be around each other everyday to show that you love them.. absence makes the heart grow fonder. and seeing other sections having section outings, does it really matter? don't put yourselves in a difficult position. i don't wish it to continue.




I MISS EVERYONE FROM TMS LA. ): so sad. i miss 5u this <_________________________________________________________________> much. <_> = one million. so go figure how much i miss my class!!! rahh. my poly class is so... well, they are all cute and nice people but i've never come by people like this before. so must adapt. hahaha. they aren't as liberal as cat talking about testicles and 'mushrooms' of the penis, as liberal as me talking about boobs, as liberal as any of us pulling our underwear in public, as liberal as us announcing ourselves having blood dripping and IT getting tired... ya. oh well, but i like my poly class too. i'm lucky to have a wild bunch of friends. at least they aren't quiet like mouses. if not i'd die. YAY. cat and sheena will be visiting me in EC today. i am so anticipating the moment. (: <3s of my world unite. all at ec. (: whee~ i shall go prepare. hee hee.





i love skating and MY IC+skaterswhoknowme. i love my classmates in poly. i love MY 5U! i love band band band and MY FLUTE! I LOVE MY FAMILY!! <3 omg. so cool. everything in life is so sweet and nice. apart from the homework in poly is making me miserable. RAHH. haha. <33
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i hate ba chor mee. only the one at chai chee. F**KED up. i'll go burn that place down man. piss off.




TP is cool. (: and YES MUNAH, i'll get to see you a lot, hopefully. i'm starting to like engine a lot though it's never been through my mind at all previously to get into engine school. hahaha. it's nice actually. the people are soooooooo cute. lols.




happy happy. i should stay happy all the time even though i'm not. i got screamed the minute i reached home. i know that mommy cares but.. it's not the right way. and so im crying a river. i wish myself dead. i'm insignificant anyway. i used to cry over about the same things. cat, sheena and all.. band.. shawn.. now i'm crying over a whole new thing. the radio is on, evokes my emotion even more. xD hahaha. stupid, i know. oh well. school's starting soon. i shall not trouble myself with so many problems. take care people...





whoever's reading..
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for some reasons i'm enjoying myself in engineering school. LOLS. hmm. i just had my first day of orientation today and well, there are 20 people in my class, 6 of them whom i haven't met because they were absent today. also, my classmates are mostly year 88s.. 3 of them year 89 and 1 year 87, 1 year 86 and 1 year 85! awesome. honestly speaking, my whole class are admitted into engineering school unwillingly. but we seem the most enthusiastic bunch out of those other 700 plus people. woot. i saw alex, wei jian(bball team) and melvin. year 89 batch. they are in mechatronics. OH, chrissypoo lin en long entered the same course and SAME lecture theatreas me. which means in future we'd be seeing each other often.. hmm. i'm missing out on a lot of skating already. ): SO SADDENING. i'm seriously adapting to the skating life i was having until BOOM, it became.. POLY LIFE. holy macaroni. CRYS OUT LOUD. plans of being a pro are ruined. no more everyday skating. RAHH. i miss skating already. even though it was only 3 days back since i last skated. omg. skating's addictive. i'm also missing cat. ): (cat, it's like when i super enthu during orientation right, they say i mad. BOO..) sighs. sheena sounds like she already ADAPTED to her nursing life. luvena... is once again MIA after the class chalet. zhian.. i wonder how is she doing? EMILY!! -.- mia since donkey years ago. boo. i want to take neoprint with all of you. LOLS. missing the glamourpuss days. sighs. all good things come to an end. i can never agree more. i must always part with people or things that i can't bear to but eventually have to. so, congrats, i have to start all over again. it's time i start to get serious..




say goodbye to miss childish fu. say hello to miss kidgirl. no, not kidman. oh crap. what's wrong with me. i got to wake up early 7am tmr and am still here. LOLS. orientation until friday. OH WELL, whatever! good night all. well, if anyone's reading at all.
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if by chance anyone mature hops onto my blog, please pardon my childishness. i'm aging yes but i still talk and act and feel like a kid. LOLS. i speak without actually examining what i will be saying through my brains. rahh. and apparently, someone blog hopped onto my blog and i just realised what stupiddarnitshitcrappy things i have said on the entry that he had read. OMG. this is SO embarrassing?! and i doubt anyone else reads my blog anyway.
my internet was down again. -.- two to three weeks i haven't been online. haven't been updating. sorry folks. my bad. :/
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not that i don't care. i'm going mad thinking about it. i seriously need all the effing money in the world so that dad and mom can start a business and that i can well, bribe people to burn those freaking polytechnics that rejected me. (x out of my mind. yes, totally. i have yet to hear from temasek poly and republic poly. at least those who rejected me gave me a rejection letter. i feel so damned rejected, dejected and neglected. argh. i'm the least concerned whether or not you're sad, seriously. i don't give a damn. i have my own life to worry about now. i'm hanging on a thread on the 100'000 feet cliff. TP or RP? who will save me? and maybe if i had more money, i could take a private diploma. sighs. my world crumbles down on me. i'm left breathless and helpless. i could cry a river now, but what's the use of it? my head's bobbing so hard. my hair's turning white(yes, it is) and i'm here at my computer ranting and ranting and ranting about my life. as though i'd be a writer or somewhat close to that. i need a punchbag. i'd box the hell out of it. i'll make my fingers numb, i'll make myself cry and i'll.. i'll.. i don't know what i can do. RAHH. take a gun and make my brain dead. WOOTS. i'm crazy. i'm going through hell damn it.




I WANT TO GO OUT WITH YOU GUYS(cat, emmy, luv, sheena and zhian). class chalet is in 2 days time. hope things will turn for the better. )x if not.. i'll be so very lost.




you don't need to cry me a river. i'll do it myself.




and FINALLY! i'm in the demo team of inline culture. will do all i can and hope i can go for a performance SOON! i think skating has already taken half of my life. well, and the other half goes to ALUMNI BAND! concert at the end of the year! sweet! (x oh man, i love life. but i can't live like that forever can i? RAHH. saddening. i wish human wasnt the only resource in singapore really. hope singapore was SO MUCH richer. and my family will be MUCH MORE richer than singapore. woahahaha. yes, can't deny that GREED is one of my biggest flaw. i think so much but all this thinking don't come to use. dolt. REAL BIG ONE AT THAT.




i've filled my entry with colours of a rainbow. things WILL be better as days pass. i'm a rainbow. i'm.. 'happy'. am i?
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WHOOPEEDEEDOO! finally sheena is back, back, BACK! and her first msg to me was "you don't miss me right?" omg. how untrue. okay, so we have to plan an outing soon, wear glam glam and to town we'll head! (x sweet. rahh. have been waiting for them to be free. oh, the school's musical was on last friday. HA HA HA. i knew nothing about it until benny tried to promote it on well, FRIDAY EVENING itself. -.- what the.. it's as though i have superman's power and dash to the indoor theatre in such a short notice. tsk tsk. oh well. heard from someone that the musical was crap. one country fight another. HMM. and then? like that lor. lols. phew. lucky i was busy that day if not i'd have gone to the musical that costs a whooping 30 bucks? rahh. no thank you. xb okay. done with my rants. i'm tired and will need a good sleep. blog next time. byeee..
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