♥ Monday, August 28, 2006
FAT? THIN? JUST NICE? YOU KNOW WHAT?
I DON'T GIVE A DARN.
that's for you girls out there. this post is especially for those bimbotic girls out there. freak you. "I WANT TO DIET! I NEED TO GO ON A DIET! SEE SEE! I'M SO FAT!!!" quote quote. well now, doesn't that sound a tad TOO familiar?! that's what you hear from most typical girls. take example me, i eat like a glutton. yes, i know gluttony is a sin but hello? you diet for what? for which desirable man to peek at what? one, only your loves will see your fat. and your loves WON'T mind you being fat. well, that is IF your love is a true one. now i don't even care about how i look like. STILL, do i lack a queue of suitors? NO, I DON'T. the wrong way to do it is to make yourself LOOK good to feel good. it's only correct when you FEEL good then you'll look good. ARGH. pathetic.
i'm so dissed by her. i had to give her HALF my portion of noodles because she hasn't eaten. and she still have the cheek to command me "eh, on the other light leh! so dim..". RIGHT, VERY NICE INDEED. and when i refused, she just threw this statement at me that totally pissed me off. she said "SO LAZY NO WONDER SO FAT." please, anyone out there, don't EVER attempt to use the word FAT on me cuz i hate it. maybe because i know i am and i don't need anyone to tell me that. and even if i am, i have no intentions on going on a diet. i just need to tone the fats. it WAS muscles until i stopped toning it. GET THAT INTO YOUR HEAD YOU BIMBOS. it's funny why they prefer to have BIG bobbing heads with TINY lil bodies? so you think you look like maple character you damn cute la?! it's UNPROPORTIONATE FOR GOODNESS SAKE. your head is so big but it's empty inside. like.. coconut. ARGH. that's why i say girls are stupid. yes, it includes me too.
WHO cries at home and sings emotional tunes alone after a break-up?
WHO actually wallows for a few weeks, months or even years after it?
WHO will miss their ex who's already attached to so many others after you?
WHO will be hopelessly devoted until huanghe dries up?
WHO AH WHO? i ask you who you say me. you ask me who i say you. we all girls WHAT. WHAT TO DO WHAT TO DO. nevermind, i'm glad i'm a changed person. ((x i don't need no another. no other halves. i've already said so many times. i only want either one girlfriend OR two boyfriends. yes, greed. yet another sin. i am what i am and i don't give a darn. just shut your craphole and eat your food. ):<
till next time then! i hope no one gets offended. i'm just merely ranting. WAIT. why do i even care about what you think? it's MY blog you are reading. if you feel offended, simply click on the cross on the TOP RIGHT HAND CORNER. thanks for reading and bye to my lovely loves!
*anyway this is just an entry when i got so mad at my TOOT*. so i posted this. it's not to shoot anyone especially okay. :/
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♥ Sunday, August 27, 2006
today's JASON's BIRTHDAY. jason as in my eldest sis nic's husband. hubby. LAO GONG. hahaha.-.-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON TAN (aka JIE FU)!!! ((: ahaha. I LOOOOOOVVVVEEE my family. despite the fact that i'm always such a bitch to them, they're
DARN NICE to me. rah. someone shoot me. mom gave me bird nest soup that day, dad bought me dinner when i'm supposed to buy it for him. \: and jason just gave me a piece of his oreo cheese birthday cake. he delivered it to my room. AND i din sing him his birthday song. x: OH MY, i'm such a slut. i'm supposed to do things for them but i'm just sitting at this desk, playing maple. now that everythings over, i'm starting to feel very remorseful. okay so here goes his birthday song.
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JAAAAAASOOONN,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
rahh. i ate 2.5 bowls of fried rice, one bowl of soup, i'm eating one slice of the oreo cheesecake now and later, I HAVE TO EAT THE COLD CHENG TNG that daddy bought for me. x_x mom forced me to drink the soup, dad made me eat more rice cuz i din eat my lunch, he bought cheng tng cuz he knows i love it, and cheesecake is.. irresistable. RAHHH. if i grow fat one day, it's seriously NOT my fault. they feed me with food that's too good to resist. HA. and i was mean to all of them. )): slap me damn it. sorrrryyyy.
anyway, zhian, sheena, cat, emily and luv, 31st of august is teacher's day celebration. the time we can start to do our visiting is after 11. mr nathan going to see them do aces day workout and stuffs, so i think we cannot go in so early. YES, it's the president that's going to watch the juniors do the aces day dance. HMM you wonder. cuz they said the school did a lot to help the president's star charity. so the president is going down to school SPECIALLY. ha. mr oh what! what to do. so helpful and all. HAA. OHOH! and remember there's the theme for be-yourselves day? the theme is COFFEE COLOURS. -.- okay omg wth. the whole school is gonna be BROWN?
and brown is also the colour for AHEM*. the whole school wearing shades of brown.. quite a turn off. urgh. before that, the theme was 'NERDS'. hmm. what's that gonna mean? juniors.. HAIYO. tsk tsk. should come up with some DOTS and STRIPES theme. or animal theme. where you wear leopard prints or cow prints tee with jeans or something. quite cute what. have to be creative that is. OKAY, enough of my opinions. BE INFORMED AH BABES. tell me if you all have set the time to meet or what. MESSAGE ME CAN. -.- i have a phone know!
take care sweethearts! till next time!
12:14 AM;
♥ Tuesday, August 22, 2006
i've sinned.
she forgets really fast.
after all that i've done, she still can come knocking on my door and bring me a bowl of bird nest and tell me it's good for my skin. RAHH. it's no wonder i feel so darn guilty everytime after i hang up on her. boohoo. ): and i just skipped dinner because i don't want to face him. he's mad at me because i'm mean to her. and i'm mad at him too. don't i look like i can take care of myself!? >: okay maybe i don't but I CAN. it's only during weekends that i stay out so late. i know there's no reason that i should scream at her but.. if she does it all the time, i'd find it a nuisance no? home is never a hotel. but if there's no one home, and i'm alone most of the time, there's a reason for me to avoid home and be with OTHER people right? they're home 20% of the time. and they're home only after work. such a lonely home.
and that's just a part of it.
ANYWAY, 5uniteds!! teachers' day celebration is on 31st of august.
anyone having same thoughts as me? ((: well, TIME TO VISIT THE SCHOOL!!!
it's be-yourself day and we can see all our ex-teachers. please keep me informed if you guys already plan your visit back to school. this time i won't turn you guys down. OKOK? cat, emily, khai, luvena, nazirul, sheena and zhian, do keep me informed! if you guys are reading my blog. HAHA. love love.
take care people. till next time. i think i NEED to mug soon. i HAVE TO. and i haven't started. exams start this friday. oh crap what am i going to do! lynn ah lynn.. you stupid girl.
11:02 PM;
♥ Sunday, August 20, 2006
ooh gosh. supposed to meet zhu, javier and sam at rink at 4.30pm. i'm still here! i'm gonna study with them. HMM? well sam learns a math so he'd probably be able to help me out. ha! okay, i'm gonna study, don't want to repeat module. so i'm leaving. im'm not bringing my skates. if i bring it, i'd probably skate.. so no skates for today. >: sadness. OKAY.
math exam is on this coming friday, circuit analysis exam's on next next mon and last exam would be digital funds on next next tuesday. RAHH! then holidays. then.. supp papers. >: NOOOOOOOOO.. oh wells. gambatte to all. exams around the corner. ESP CAT! YOU CAN DO IT! ZHIAN AND SHEENA TOO!! and to all 5united students, we
CAN ALL do it! pass this module and get to the next. ((: take care peoples. sorry for turning down the fireworks invite the last minute. \: feeling so apologetic. the only thing i can do is say sorry. on cat's birthday we play with sparklers la. LOLS. look like fireworks, the miniature version though. HA. okay, enough with my nonsense. i'd get going.
to anyone who's reading. STUDY!!! eat. STUDY! rest. STUDY! eat. STUDY! sleep. THEN GOOD LUCK TO YOU if your exams start tmr. all the best for everyone's exams! love.
4:09 PM;
♥ Tuesday, August 15, 2006
i've offended someone i shouldn't have. now he's SOOOOOOOOOO mad at me he.. i don't know. i can only WAIT till he calms down. )):
and in this mad mad situation that ANOTHER friend was trying to solve, he got pissed by both of us. ): because both of us refuse to tell him anything and we both told him to "ASK HIM/HER". eeks. so he ended up flaring up at me, which made me flare up more. but now this other friend and i are chilled. but he's still mad. :\ why do i always do things on impulse? rahh.listening to: HOLLABACK GIRL - Gwen Stefani.
this SO reminds me of sec 5 days. cat and i made a video where we lip-synced the song! HAHA! ((: so niceeeee. during what? CHINESE lessons. HA!
sher: 'he can live with her but he cant live without you.'
too many people are nice to me. that's why i've been taking things for granted. I AM SORRY sweethearts. i should NEVER take things for granted. from young know. when will i change?! rahh. I SUCK. dejected. rejected. neglected. ONCE AGAIN.
1:38 AM;
♥ Friday, August 11, 2006
i'm in my school's free access lab. HAHAHA. just got in a while ago. (: the comp is goooooooooood! HA. the comp's font damn big damn cute la.
at least i'm doing my task. rahhh. OPOPOP. oral presentation. -.- doomed. mine was supposedly to be done YESTERDAY. and only until now i am doing my research and speech outline! man am i good. okay. Liling is watching Youtube. Yiwen is doing the wrtoral (omgwow). Meiru is i don't know.. stoning? and i'm 50% focused on my task. i'm so slow. wait, I RE-SENTENCE what i said bout yiwen.. YIWEN is not doing her wrtoral anymore. she's like playing neopets?! LOL. madness.
fireworks later or.. SKATE TRAINING?!? ): i think i'll go fireworks later next week when NOBODY wants to watch it. ha. if not it'll be so crowded i'll be squashed in the crowd. nono, i don't want that to happen. so i'm going for training. rahh. i seem to be turning down all their invitations. ):
NONO, OF COURSE I STILL HAVE YOU GUYS IN MY HEART. that'll be forever. until my blood runs dry. until my heart stops beating. until i take my last breath in this life. cuz i promised the three of them they'll be my kids godmas. and we planned to stay together as 5united under ONE roof when we're all rich and can afford a house so big it can fit the 40 of us. (: sweet. i love i love.
wednesday was spent on ice skating + urban skating. urban was pretty much a failure for me because ONE, i did not get to urban with them until they were leaving. TWO, my skates were with bong until i found him with the rest. THREE, i got so freaking sad, frustrated and pissed with everyone (i was walking against the nation). let me elaborate about it. because i din have my skates with me and i had to walk walk walk walk walk walk walk from esplanade to cityhallmrt station, take the train ALONE, walk walk walk walk walk walk walk walk walk walk walk walk walk walk walk walk walk walk from kallang mrt walk walk walk walk walk walk walk one big round, turn here turn there, cross the bridge walk left then turn right walk until my legs were screaming and crying in misery. and when i finally saw the skaters, i just broke down la!!! so sad.)): "lynnee bie ku." he is my instructor. he is love.
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anyway, WHOA. that post was delayed since friday afternoon. hmm. okay. friday night was screwed. ignorance is NOT bliss. well, not to someone who's so very important. sorry moomoo. but it's already monday and he has finally calmed down. rahh. i missed the FIRST invitation of fireworks because of training. and it turned out bad. had a day or two of dejection. cured finally. then SECOND invitation, i COULD have went until i realised i was already too late for it. good things don't happen to me. thanks zhian for buying me ding ding tang. ((: still such a sweetie please. rahh.
listening to: UNFAITHFUL - rihanna.
I WANT EVA LONGORIA TO BE MY WIFE, PARIS HILTON TO BE MY SUGAR MOMMY AND NAIMA TO BE MY CONCUBINE. WHOA. I'D BE IN HEAVEN.
WHOA. i see i see.
11:12 AM;
♥ Thursday, August 03, 2006
this, is the hungarian suicide song, also known as the suicide song. and im listening to it.
gloomy sunday - billie holiday.
Sunday is gloomy
My hours are slumberless
Dearest the shadows
I live with are numberless
Little white flowers
Will never awaken you
Not where the black coaches of
Sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thoughts
Of ever returning you
Wouldn't they be angry
If I thought of joining you?
Gloomy Sunday
Gloomy is sunday,
With shadows I spend it all
My heart and I
Have decided to end it all
Soon there'll be candles
And prayers that are said I know
But let them not weep
Let them know that I'm glad to go
Death is no dream
For in death I'm caressin' you
With the last breath of my soul
I'll be blessin' you
Gloomy Sunday
Dreaming, I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you asleep
In the deep of my heart here
Darling I hope
That my dream never haunted you
My heart is tellin' you
How much I wanted you
Gloomy Sunday
i'm listening to the song now. suicidal? you question. maybe.
they don't understand it do they? i'm mad at them. VERY VERY MAD AT THEM.
if you still don't believe me, http://www.snopes.com/music/songs/gloomy.htm check this out.
okay, whoever loves me.. raise up your hand! lols. whatever. crap.and as i was pissed with them, i did tickle tests.Congratulations, Lynnee! Your IQ score is 118
This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others. Your Intellectual Type is Visual Mathematician. This means you are gifted at spotting patterns — both in pictures and in numbers. These talents combined with your overall high intelligence make you good at understanding the big picture, which is why people trust your instincts and turn to you for direction — especially in the workplace. (: so any woes and troubles? feel free to tell me about it. i'll keep it a good secret. i always do. i feel like being a counsellor all of a sudden. HA. fled because i drove off. fled because i said i was lesbian. fled because i was too 'mean'.pink came up with a song called 'stupid girls'. maybe greenday or yellowcard should come up with a song - STUPID BOYS. (x
10:09 PM;
♥ Wednesday, August 02, 2006
original copy from baoyi. erm.. then luvena! then here it is. i'm doing it to. with MY answers. (: i think i'm the coolest.
(1) I am : not you.
(2) My ex : is in melbourne.
(3) Maybe : you should love me instead of her.
(4) I love : those who loves me back.
(5) I don't understand : things done in CKT and math lessons. DAMNIT.
(6) I lost : LOST? i haven't lost my virginity nor first kiss. i lost a lot of phones though.
(7) My girlfriends/boyfriends are : people whom you'll never get to meet. they are out of the world.
(8) People say : I HAVE AN ANNOYINGLY CUTE VOICE.
(9) Love is : somethingthati'llnevergettoexperience.
(10) Somewhere, someone : is willingly to die to be mine. i hope.
(11) I will always : keep my friends with me until my blood runs dry.
(12) Forever : friends?
(13) I never want : to repeat the mistakes that i have done.
(14) I think the current President : should be replaced by my father.
(15) When I woke up in the morning : i was hoping i won't be late for school. but i was anyway.
(16) Life is full : of fun, joy and laughters. d:
(17) My past : is my passe.
(18) I get annoyed : WHEN PEOPLE IMITATE MY VOICE. so stop it.
(19) Parties are for : me to dance and you to keep your hands to yourself.
(20) I wish : nobody i love will die before 76.
(21) My pet : fortune is the stinkiest dog in the entire universe/ FISHES are still living. phew.
(22) Kisses are the worst : when he doesn't know how to do it.
(23) Today : im happy.
(24) Tomorrow : i'll work for it.
(25) I really want : someone to love me the way i will.
(26) I have low tolerance for people : who act like they own the whole world when they're only filthy rich.
(27) If I had a million dollars : i'd buy things for EVERY SINGLE person i know. and save 7 million for my family.
yes, that's me. anyway, HELLO KAT AND JAVIER! (: love. hee. MAYBE im stressed. i dont know. hahaha. HELLO WEIQIANG FROM TPDE. d: haha.
i'm leaving. take care loves. stay tuned. till next time.
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