No matter how much you love him, those things about him that won't change and you cannot accept, you have to give up and let go, even it pains you to do so.
- anny.

What once so deep is now so shallow.
This just fools us all.


Tis the season to be jolly~
Fah la la la laa~ la la la laa~

Anw, Happy Schooling to all the secondary school kids. =)
Please enjoy your youthful teenage years as they're the best times of your lives.

I feel so old i wanna die now.
Or maybe quickly give birth to a boy and live in a zen-insipred 3-room flat.
Just me and my son. (i love mummy's boys'. well, to a certain extent.)

I can't sleep.
My head hurts.
My back aches.
Everywhere hurts.
Everywhere aches.
I feel like shit.

ahhh. f-ed up.
6:21 AM;





旧的不去, 新的不来.

As soon as it was gone, there was an immediate replacement.
The funny thing is, it was only 9 hours and i can find someone else calling me the exact same thing.


Sexy is as easy as that.

I'm dissed.
I'm tired.
I'm done.

(wait up for the massive upload of photos from all over the place. =\ be patient. all good things are worth waiting for.)
5:38 AM;





QQ: ? Do i know you?
jav: lols. true true true!!

I WILL BE LEAVING FOR MALAYSIA IN.. 7 HOURS AND 45MINS. =D
Roughly.. lols.

I can't get to sleep. =c not that i'm too excited or what..
I rolled around in bed for 40mins and decided that i'd blog since i won't be able to fall asleep anytime soon cus i just woke up from the supposedly-20mins-peel-off-facial-that-turned-into-3hours-facial. -.-

I'm using my desktop for the 1st time in 3 months or so.. and i happen to browse through the old photos.
Zhen huai nian dang tian de ri zi.. sighs.

Photos are dated back up to 3 years ago.
Year 2006 when i first joined Inline Culture, and got my helmet on the 5th March 2006.
(I still can remember the day Steven passed me the helmet and said "Go perform. If not i pass you the helmet for what?" So HAPPY can. =)

Being in the team was everything to me. It still is. But.. i only love demos.
competition... it's my passion to skate. it's not my mission to skate.
I have set my mind straight. =) and i'm fnally clear on why i want to skate.
I have to admit, I haven't been to the rink for 1 month and 1 week cus of hongmo, inflammation and a week or two, laziness.


Caught up with a few others on eddy's birthday and last friday only to find out that almost half of the people aren't attending the trainings as well.
I guess our passion is there, but our flames to compete has died out.
Well, i hope that's the way it is though cus most of the people i know are from inline culture, and i don't wanna lose the connection i have with friends i made from there.

Paya lebar runway is coming and it's time for us to rebuild our flickering passion and not engage in any competition. Urbans, Outings and celebrations, i still super onz. Competition.. eh.. ah... urm.. wait..

PHOTOS TIME! =D



6:04 AM;





amy: Yep, i watched the movie that's why i decided to start on the series! and I LOVE IT TOO!
tai: eh eh.. +1. i got.. 7 READERS!
jasmine: YAY. +1! And sweets, I AM TRYING!! =c will call you out soon k! hugs. =D

It's Monday!

A new beginning for the week.
I will be at Bedok corner to help out cus mom's going for yoga at night.. Hmm..
They already gave me a wad of $300 cash for my driving lesson. so loved so loved! =)

So yesterdy Dad and Mom left the stall early for a dinner with me.. We went to Phin's Grill Beerhaus restaurant..
I ate a plate of sizzling lamb chop, mom ate the classic fish & chips and dad had the honey mustard grilled chicken.

We waited 15mins for someone to serve us but to no avail.. So i went up to the counter MYSELF and placed our orders.
The manager looked kinda frustrated cus there's only 2 runners and it was full house (approximately 15 tables, 36ppl).
So we waited for our food to arrive. Another 20mins passed and we were still there, left hungry.
So mummy asked the manager "Wha, very busy ah? No workers?" when he served us our water (it was 20 mins later after i ordered and was served the 3 cups of water).
He replied "Got workers. But MC luh, sick luh, this luh, that luh." then left to serve others in a hurry.

What bloody service tax are we paying for? The totalled bill came up to $45 mind you.
I'd only pay the 7% and void 10% thanks. -.-
And the food wasn't that fantastic lor. Nabueyz. Waste money, waste time, waste effort to eat.

But i like to eat phin's only cus of the reasonable prices for their lunch sets which costs $9.90 that comes with a main course, soup and drink.
I hereby announce, EAT AT PHIN'S ONLY DURING LUNCH TIME.
Avoid phin's during dinner time. DONE.

Anw, i like this song "No boundaries" very much! from the lyrics to the rhythm and the beat..
Singer is american idol season 8 winner Kris allen.
Boo to Adam Lambert. >=b
One-of-a-kind, check. Good personality, check. Gothic looks, check. Great voice, NO!
He practically shouts to reach his high notes.
Yes, he CAN reach the notes but... from my point of view, it sounds terrible. i mean seriously..
Just cus he has an outstanding image and personality, people say Kris is a typical boyband material who doesn't deserve to win the idol title.
Eh, it's American IDOL. Of course there must be some sort of idol image right?
Don't understand why fans of Lambert keep criticising Kris for being the winner.. tsk.


And, enjoy the song.. =D there aren't any images or video about Kris but a photo of him. LOL.
No boundaries!



Lyrics:

Seconds, hours, so many days.
You know what you want,
But how long can you wait?
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you've lost your way.
What if my chances are already gone?
I started believing that I could be wrong.
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away.
So here I am still holding on...

Chorus:
With every step, you climb another mountain.
With every breath, it's harder to believe.
You make it through the pain,
Weather the hurricanes to get to that one thing.
Just when you think the road is going nowhere,
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams,
They take you by the hand and show you that you can.
There are no boundaries, there are no boundaries.

I fall to the limit to stand on the edge.
What if today is as good as it gets?
Don't know where the future's heading,
But nothing's gonna bring me down.
I've jumped every bridge and I've run every light.
I've risked being safe and I always knew why.
I always knew why, so here I am still holding on.

(Chorus)

You can go higher, you can go deeper.
There are no boundaries above or beneath you.
Break every rule,
'Cause there's nothing between you and your dreams.

With every step, you climb another mountain.
With every breath, it's harder to believe...

Yeah, there are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.

With every step, you climb another mountain.
With every breath, it's harder to believe.
You make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes.
There are no boundaries, there are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries..

Awesome yea! =D Love the song luh. Can check out Adam Lambert's version too.
Not quite pleasing to my ears but very strong and powerful like how some might like it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vokM1z8on5g

Alright, i think i'll be updating even lesser this week.
i should be at my parent's stall till thursday.. then i'd be off to a refreshing trip to msia..
then back to sg for an fun-filled sunday aka the paya lebar runway cycling event. =D

WHOOPEE!
(anw, father's day is on the 21st! NOT 14th! omg i got misleaded. =c shall amend the dates..)


Have a great week ahead ppl!
Until next time..
Hugs!
10:29 AM;





wiL , aki , kat: eee. love you all luh. ya, MY READERS! 4! =D
anny: yes yes, her pretty eyes! tsk. unfair. but she has no hair! =x haha.

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Hsiao Jing Teng 蕭敬騰 . 原諒我 =D

he's really cute, sings well and talented! sweet.
LOVE!
4:55 PM;





don: you know i don't initiate calls one what!! unless emergency.. >=Q
anny: haha. i'm addicted to sex *pause*...
and the city series! bahahahahaha! the show is hilarious.

I didn't help out at my parents stall on sunday. didn't help out yesterday.. and..
Today... hmmm... I'll see about that.

Things didn't go quite as i planned cus my throat inflammation is not recovering as fast as i thought it would.
And cus my parents work in the F&B industry, well, i insisted that i shouldn't go cus i might infect all the innocent lives that might happen to patronise bedok corner.
And not only that, my parents too will fall ill and i don't want that to happen.

no, not excuses.. i mean seriously.. =c


Anw, this is my new look with my new specs!
Awesome!? =D my face very chui in this photo so please ignore that..


I couldn't find the similar type of orange gucci specs that i had owned before..
so i went ahead with another colour. oh well.

And, something really not worth mentioning..
but i still want to say it.. i've taken interest on the Sex and the city series! =D
there's no equality.. cus women are superior and men are inferior.
HOHO. just a quote. it's funny why i've been talking like a feminist after watching it.
women, single and fabulous, even at 35.

after finishing sex and the city, i'll watch the L word.
anny and chris prompted me to watch lie to me.
a show that teaches people how to spot the possible habits that people have when they are lying.
heh heh. i'm gonna be a pro soon.. and people who lie to me are gonna be exposed! >=D

ohoh. we also talked about "what do you think are your strongest positive and negative traits?"
i came home and thought about it. the most prominent..
negative: lackadaisical.
positive: easily satisfied.

actually come to think of it.. being easily satisfied is not a very positive trait.
it means i'm complacent. =c boo..

aiya. say so much for what. i got no readers.

i shall stuff myself silly and try to gain 3kg for the next week.
9/10 of the people who see me say "eh you diet ah? why so skinny? you very skinny you know!"
besides that, i cannot wear my damned pretty bustier that i wore for my prom. bloody hell.

MY BUST. it's EMPTY.
GONED WITH THE WIND..
seriously being 41kg isn't nice. (MARCUS I AM NOT FAT OKAY.)

i rather be 45kg and have boobs. BOO. f.

FEED ME. PEOPLE FEED ME. got feast please invite me! =D
eddy did his share for me. xoxo. shall wait for dinners and more dinners to come!

I can't wait for the upcoming events in june!
WOO!!~

here are the photos for jazelle's 1st birthday. =D love it!







2:40 AM;





anny: ya!! really damn true.. gave me quite a shock lor. =\ but i like it. HAHA. it was fun!
jav: i think that was meant to be a secret. LOL. but anw, i went to taiwan's MOS and the music is crap. besides, the people there very open-minded fyi (porn on national tv).
don: grab people's balls and squeeze them and make them hurt excuse me. =.= not caress.
kat: LOL. enjoy & take care of yourself.. i think i'm giving it a pass!


i went to help out at my parents stall this week..
and for the 3-4 hours i work in 1 day, dad gave me $50 and mom gave me another $80 for me to pay the balance for my specs of $110... (which i was supposed to fork out by myself.)

plus, they'll be paying for my driving lessons..
it's nice to know that my parents dote on me and pamper me so much. xoxo.

i think if i continue helping out, they would probably quarrel less. lol. =D
so maybe i'd be helping out at the stall for some time until i'm independent enough to work alone. =c

just came back from jazelle's party around 12am plus.
it was cute cus lucas was the balloon uncle for the day. =)
he made the decorations for the chalet with pink and purple metallic balloons and it was nice he gave his all for my sis and jazelle.
it was only a 1st year birthday celebration and he wanted to make a balloon arch for the chalet!
that's crazy... lol. i mean, it's not like jazelle will know what it is and be thankful for it.

saw my pretty cousins jasmine, jeslyn, wendy and jasmine's boyfriend mark (for the first time).
we talked about our boyfriends, looked at the kids and jas asked me "so how many kids you gonna have? your boyfriend seem to like kids a lot.."
well, that i can't answer. i don't think i'd be getting married anytime soon, let alone have kids. -.-
and what makes her think i'd be settling so soon!? madness..

will get the photos from lucas's cam when he uploads it.
it was good to have met up with the cousins. =D

and cus i stayed on at the chalet till midnight, i didn't get to go for the training briefing..
=\ aikes.

now about myself.. i'm having another (huge ass) throat inflammation AGAIN.
it's even worse than last month's cus it hurts to even yawn! bloody hell.
i think it must be the random malay auntie who talked to me at the bus stop when i was waiting for a bus to my parents stall.
she was drinking a mouthful of water from her bottle for every sentence she said.
and i think i might've just passed the virus on to the people at jazelle's chalet. =\ noooooo... eeks.


anw, i'd like to end off with a really funny yet true quote from sex & the city (s2ep6) by sam..
men cheat for the same reason dogs lick their balls.
because they can, it's part of their biology.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. erm, no offense guys! =)


okay. good night people, have a fun sunday.
i will collect my new specs and work at my parent's stall as soon as i wake. =D
hugs!
3:21 PM;





wiL: HEY! WHERE ARE YOU?! which country's club are you refering to that isn't horrible like sg?! =x
Amy: i was still there when you saw them! too crowded so i guess you didn't see me. i'm too short.. ='c but yep, i left after the fight. friend got banned for being pushed.. makes no sense but oh well, left with him.


i read my girlfriend's journal and found this..

accurate analysis. stupefied really.
go try it and answer what you really imagine, not what is most beautiful to imagine.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style (look at my bf! =x). This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
(BAH! very very much of the truth..)

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them cus you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success. (sibei acccurate.)

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
6:59 PM;





Saturday Night.

Went over to Eddy's Birthday treat at Waraku ECP at about 8pm.
met up with fei at macs to buy a cake for eddy before heading over.
well, too last minute so each of us bought a piece of raspberry cheesecake from coffeebean cus we couldn't find anything more good-looking than that.
dinner was absolutely scrumptious.
finally had a taste of what nabeyaki soba is like. (boo, very sua ku i know i know. =c)

supposed to share with fei but he only ate 1/3 of the whole hot pot. grrr..
but i managed to finish my portion (2/3) and my shimeiji bacon despite my small appetite. =D

caught up with eric, marcus, moomoo, zhuzhu, QQ, QY and eddy for a bit and left with terry to meet up with kat for some FUN FUN FUN at st. james powerhouse.

BUT... the FUN at st. james turned out to be a horror.
i had a stupid quarrel with some uncilvilised juvenile delinquents.
I HATE PEOPLE WHO DANCE AND HIT MY BACK. FOR THE 100TH TIME.

well, the girl danced and hit my back on purpose cus there weren't any space.
yea, apparently there's no space for me either so i use my elbow to push her back.
THERE, THAT'S WHAT STARTED THE QUARREL. -.-

it's either i was too strong that the push made her fall..
or she's too weak that the push from me made her fall..

then her 2 other friends - Chao Ah Lians (think black tube top with mini shorts and strapless heels) - started screaming at me.
cus i'm not the shout/scream type of person, i was at a loss of words luh.
i was just waiting for them to assault me so i can fight back in defence but apparently..
girls don't use their fist (maybe except me).

then 2 bouncers came, asked us to go out to settle the dispute.
he said "so you wanna settle this or proceed further?"..
so we (another girl who was a better speaker helped to speak up for the girl i 'pushed'. the speaker was the size of zac lor! i should've said "look at her size, you think i can move her meh?!" but i was in my innocent girl mode so i didn't say that) came to a conclusion to resolve the matter with a handshake.
LOL, typical not-of-much-use method.


then their guys - Chao Ah Bengs - came into the picture.
2 of them were barking like mad dogs suffering from rabies, 3 metres away from our circle.
and 1 of them suddenly charged towards us and pushed 1 of our guys down - terry.


the ah lian then talked to me "can you all go inside pls? don't make them angry alr."
hello? they all smoking in a public smoking area, you want me to ask them go away for?
nathan to sit there?
all of them were seriously just standing there and smoking and that agitates the ah bengs.

ah bengs = nonsensical and forever finding things to do.


then later on the matter became more complicated.
it turned out to be a fist fight between the bouncers and some of kat's friend's friends.


cus another guy was talking to kat about settling the matter (we alr settled with a handshake lor -.- ), and to continue having fun clubbing.
kat said "yea, the matter already settled but then your friend pushed my friend. so you all should apologise right?"
he then replied with a " No apologies." (the conversation was roughly like that.)

then that's where the other more serious matter arose.
when he said that to kat, kat's friend's friend overheard it and pushed the guy.
so the bouncer tried to break up the 2 guys, kat's friend's friend punched the bouncer. aikes.
then ta-duh, fist fight.

stupid. then they all "diao jui" : meaning call back up in hokkien i think.
and settled the matter outside of the club. erm... so is it my fault? i don't think so right? -.-


it was the stupid guy who pushed terry who continued the dispute.
so you get what i mean when i said ah bengs = nonsensical and forever finding things to do?

they came in a group but... what has my dispute with the girl got to do with the guys?
so if the boy who was angry was the (assuming) boyfriend, he should hit me, not others.

then i could've punched him in the face or grab his balls.
seriously i want to know what's the feeling of landing my fist onto someone's face.


if they dare lay a finger on me, first thing i'm going to do is take out a camera, take photos of the guy and then post them onto blogger, into fb, into friendster, youtube and make a big hooha about him beating a girl.

to push my luck further, maybe get him into the newpapers and he will be defamed.

oh well.
i think it was stupid of me to have raised my voice at the fat ah lians.
i should've just acted pretty, pitiful and cry while saying "they bully me!".... ha.


the quarrel was stupid.
should've just let me pluck their fake lashes out and pull down their tube tops.
bah~

k, i'm going to sleep. shall not elaborate further.
i caused a whole mess.
maybe i should learn to exercise my mind to be more tactful at pranks.

good night readers.
2:42 AM;