My life is as still as the waters for mosquitoes to breed.

WHY... am i such a boring person!?
There's so much I want and wished I could do but I can't.

SO, I'm going to start new habits so I wouldn't be such an awful person who has no more zest in her life.

#1. Sit up straight.
- I've developed a tummy and I think I'm becoming the hunchback of notre dame.

#2. Start to do some reading.
- My brain cells are dying. My memory's deteriorating. I'm turning into an old woman. ;(

#3. Meet new people.
- I'm stuck with my group of chums. I fear change and it's hard for me to adapt.. but everyone says CHANGE IS THE ONLY CONSTANT so I should start learning.

#4. Swim and skate on a regular basis.
- I already said I'm turning into an old woman. Sagging comes with the package old.

#5. Take my dogs out for a walk more often.
- Louis needs to meet the world. Fortune needs a breather. I need both.

#6. DO SOMETHING TO OCCUPY MYSELF. Eg. Getting a job.
- Dang, I can't depend on my parents forever. Working for them is semi-reliant on them. If I achieve #6, I will achieve #3 at the same time. Good, I should find a job now.

#7. Last but not least, decide what I should do about my 21st.
- I AM EN ROUTE TO BECOMING A WOMAN and I am still so indecisive and unsure. Geez..


I think I'm gonna have a boring, impromptu and nothing-to-be-happy-about 21st birthday celebration.
-FML.
4:21 PM;





If we really disappear from the earth on 2012, what would you do before you die?

Life in singapore has become so dull, I cannot think of anything.
I'm upset.

I really have no ideas of what to do for this supposed-to-be-oh-so-big birthday for my 21st.
argh.


wanted to post an entry but I can't do it now. I'm blank.
I'll do it when I think of what to say.

And, I should stop humouring myself now.
Disgruntled and unworthy.
3:26 AM;





All the things said, running through my head, running through my head, running through my head.

I don't think it'll ever be right to say anything anymore.
I'll just leave it be. Like I said, whatever happens, happens.


And we're all clear about what it's going to be like now since it's already said.

Said it, heard it, digested it.

All my blood, sweat and tears.
Quarrels, fights and even to the extent of leaving home for it.
All the things she said, fact, fact, fact, truth, truth, correct.


All the reasons I've given, voided with contempt.
That left a bullet in my heart. Utter disappointment. I'm very upset.

But there isn't any reason for me to be anyway. 'Since everything's nothing to me'.


I've sorted it out.
I've planted my feet on the ground that have groomed me but was thwarted othwerwise.
I have all the reasons to prove it but i think, it's useless to do it anymore.
(read the post on june 19)

I will venture and stand on my own. Luckily, I'm strong enough.
No winds have ever put me down.
I am still going to feel the breeze in my hair.


AND BLOGGER IS FINE NOW AFTER 2 MONTHS! HAHA!
CTRL+A, CTRL+X. DELETE soon.
1:35 AM;